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Today is a bad day.
I've been depressed for ages now,
mostly about April not talking to me for....oh....months.
Including her birthday, which until the day of I thought we had plans to go out and do something.
It being her 21st and all.
But no.
She doesn't even call me.
And now today.....
I was already depressed and then 2 people attacked me at once, wanting help with problems I have no idea how to fix. D's not doing anything except talk on facebook, and David our CSS (aka the one in charge today) was being useless. I had to ask him for help three times or so for each problem before he'd even consider helping.
So I got incredibly stressed out, to the verge of tears. I didn't cry while helping customers, mostly by holding it back with anger at Dave for being so useless.
I also didn't say anything to him about it at the time...I was probably over reacting anyway.
But when he told D to check out A room and make sure everything was there (a reasonable request for D to do a job) and D asked where the check list was printed out.
Dave didn't tell him there wasn't one.
He said something more along the lines of "Well, get online and look at it under forms." And of course he had to say it like D was being ridiculous for even asking. D repeated his request, perhaps thinking Dave didn't understand that he wanted the print out.
He replied with "Just look at it online"
So, of course I had to go and put in my two cents.
It started out fairly calmly, albeit slightly out of line.
I told him that "D just wanted to know where the print out was. If there isn't one you just have to say 'There isn't a print out'."
Dave looked at D and repeated me word for word then looked back at me.
D took off, and Dave said something to me about "Watching myself because I was getting out of line."
My response was something to the effect of "Sorry I was trying not to CRY" and bursting into tears.
I turned back to face my computer and Dave added something like "You should go on your break."
I think I said something like "Oh gee THANKS" in a snappy tone and stormed out to go cry in my car for 20 minutes.
I know it's stupid, but I was so MAD at him. It's his job too! Just because he's the "all important" CSS doesn't mean he doesn't have to help us.
He lectured me and gave me a "the CSS doesn't have to give you all the answers, they're just supposed to point you in the right direction so you can find the answers yourself online." kind of speech.
Which is great. If the answers are there.
D's problem wasn't finding the check list online, he just wanted one to carry with him.
My problems were both ridiculous and Dave acted like they were all MY problems and I should fix it myself, not BOTHER him, since he was SO busy doing IMPORTANT things like checking facebook.....
Now don't get me wrong. In general I LIKE Dave.
He's not bad people.
He was just being infuriating today.
*sigh*
Or maybe it really is all in my head.
Maybe it's all my fault.
I don't know.
I've been depressed for ages now,
mostly about April not talking to me for....oh....months.
Including her birthday, which until the day of I thought we had plans to go out and do something.
It being her 21st and all.
But no.
She doesn't even call me.
And now today.....
I was already depressed and then 2 people attacked me at once, wanting help with problems I have no idea how to fix. D's not doing anything except talk on facebook, and David our CSS (aka the one in charge today) was being useless. I had to ask him for help three times or so for each problem before he'd even consider helping.
So I got incredibly stressed out, to the verge of tears. I didn't cry while helping customers, mostly by holding it back with anger at Dave for being so useless.
I also didn't say anything to him about it at the time...I was probably over reacting anyway.
But when he told D to check out A room and make sure everything was there (a reasonable request for D to do a job) and D asked where the check list was printed out.
Dave didn't tell him there wasn't one.
He said something more along the lines of "Well, get online and look at it under forms." And of course he had to say it like D was being ridiculous for even asking. D repeated his request, perhaps thinking Dave didn't understand that he wanted the print out.
He replied with "Just look at it online"
So, of course I had to go and put in my two cents.
It started out fairly calmly, albeit slightly out of line.
I told him that "D just wanted to know where the print out was. If there isn't one you just have to say 'There isn't a print out'."
Dave looked at D and repeated me word for word then looked back at me.
D took off, and Dave said something to me about "Watching myself because I was getting out of line."
My response was something to the effect of "Sorry I was trying not to CRY" and bursting into tears.
I turned back to face my computer and Dave added something like "You should go on your break."
I think I said something like "Oh gee THANKS" in a snappy tone and stormed out to go cry in my car for 20 minutes.
I know it's stupid, but I was so MAD at him. It's his job too! Just because he's the "all important" CSS doesn't mean he doesn't have to help us.
He lectured me and gave me a "the CSS doesn't have to give you all the answers, they're just supposed to point you in the right direction so you can find the answers yourself online." kind of speech.
Which is great. If the answers are there.
D's problem wasn't finding the check list online, he just wanted one to carry with him.
My problems were both ridiculous and Dave acted like they were all MY problems and I should fix it myself, not BOTHER him, since he was SO busy doing IMPORTANT things like checking facebook.....
Now don't get me wrong. In general I LIKE Dave.
He's not bad people.
He was just being infuriating today.
*sigh*
Or maybe it really is all in my head.
Maybe it's all my fault.
I don't know.