this life blows

[angelcricket]

i hate this messed up life it sucks and it drives me nuts. i feel like all this crap is happening only to me....all this bad stuff and nothing to do about it makes me sick...i have an ex. who i think about day in and day out he is (at least) i use to think he was my every thing, i still think about him all the time....any ways i am going to biz-

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its me again!

[sabbysboybmx]

sup? hehe I'm writen alot so you thank of me alot hu same here i cant say thing enough but i still love you i just dont know if you love me or want to try it with me any more but bug your not the only one thats havent a shit life i am on probation cuz of my buddy and alot of other crap and i didnt do any thing he knows and so does every one else i just could pay for every thing ot get rid of it but i have always had it hard in school jhon knows that in elemenrty he wouldnt talk to me cuz i fought alot me grand pal dies and i took out my anger on bullies and made my self a bully the ni n middle school every day my stomach would get all wierd sounden and i would want to up chuck cuz i knew i was going ot get in to a fight and get my mom on my case and after 2 years of it i got sick of it i ahd enough but no one cared i just got more fights and more ppl wanting ot see iof they could kick my ass even the teachers hated me and picked on me the princable cuzsed me out and i did right back to her and got iss i hated it i wanted to kill my self but i alwasy had hope and never gave up cuz they way i sall it if I'm going to be hated i might as well be a pain in every ones ass and a big pain lol so i did until high school then things got better and way better when i got you in my class i though you were hot the day you came out of your house and was yelling at your cuzin a long time ago i always wanted you i told my mom if i could have you a few months ago i wouldnt want any one else i would die alone and i wouldnt give a shit cuz i cant love any one but you i just cant i love you i had to talk to a few girls but all of them are like my lil sis i dont thank of them in any other way my mom even knows that and my dad talk to ken shit he of all ppl knows how bad i want you back you are woth what ever it takes for me to be happy and i will try my best to make you happy i promise i want a big house and losts of money and i will get it on the path I'm on and i hope you want ot live life with me i want you to be happy most of all i hate hearing that your not doing good or that your sad it tears me apart I'm getting a job that pays 12 an hour and my welding and auto jobs start at 60 grand a year so i could pay for your college if i had to which i dont mind at all i want you to go to college and have every thing you want well my dad is kicking me off write back on this tell me whats on your mind plz ok laters and be safe ok laters for now!