May 26, 2004 04:13
There is a person who I have found in this world, who shares with me the path I have been on for as long as my memories allow me to comprehend. She si of great beauty beyond flesh and beyond thoughts alone. To me she si light and a reason to motivate my days. I do not wish to ever possess her, though i would not mind to be possessed by her if the moment and fates allowed.
She came into my life like a violent storm and has filled my days with a kindred feeling I have never felt before. I am not a man who needs much to be happy, as most of you know. More important to me than lovers and possessions is what I get from only friends. I have never been in the graces of someone who I both wanted so horribly, yet I was merely content to only know she lived and breathed.. I feel none of the things I have felt in the past of competition and stupid deviations, but instead only compassion and the need to bring happiness to someone, whether by my hand or that of another. Before now the only time I wished this was for the children I have had and the wife I will never have again.
I do not care if I ever have this person for my own, I do not care if I ever even were to hold her and look deep into her eyes. I just could never imagine now that I have found her spending more years of this life without her in some capacity, any capacity. And for that I am grateful
She is a Goddess, a Muse, and light of grace.