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To say I'm not.. disappointed would be a lie in the least. I can't help it. I just feel.. *sighs* at a loss right now.
I mean yeah, there's one really great thing in my life.. and that's Jake. He's amazing and he's nothing but good to me.. but I still feel like I'm not good enough you know? And that maybe if I hold too tight he'll let go..
But my family.. am I losing touch? *sighs* I don't know.. it feels like I've completely drifted away from my twin and we're in two completely different worlds now. Maybe that's how it's been all along, and how it was meant to be.. who knows? It just.. sucks.. it really does. And.. I don't know if I should even bother going home this year. It's not like any of them are making any efforts to get me to come. *shrugs*
But who am I to complain? I've got Jake.. and.. not a lot of other people. I miss all of my old friends. And I try to talk to them again it just always seems like the wrong time and place and everything.
Here I am.. Miss Drama Queen..
Love ya!
*Angel*