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//firewall to everyone//
I had to kill another son today.
A boy I sired, someone I always expected to see again.
And he wanted to die.
Just like Connor...
//end firewall//
Sam Lawson was a good man once. He was a hero, someone I admired for his easy view of right and wrong. And I killed him.
He was naive, innocent, a child in many ways. And he thought that it was possible to be a good man. That a person can have a purpose in his or her life.
Yet once I sired him, that purpose fell away and he could never be what he was supposed to be. And it was my fault for not staking him when I had the chance.
Two of my line.
Spike and Lawson.
I let them both out of the sub, alive and well. Hoping to never see either of them again. They were family and it's hard to kill family. It's hard to destroy those last lines. When Kate killed Penn, it was like losing a part of myself, yet I knew it had to be done. Like I knew I had to kill Darla to protect Buffy.
And it nearly destroyed me.
Should I have killed them? The both of them?
Sam Lawson was a good man, he was a hero who wanted to save his crew, his friends, his mission. Once I sired him, he was a monster, and it went against everything that he'd been while alive.
Spike, annoying pest that he is, he killed thousands of people since I let him go that day. And he saved even more. So what was the right thing to do, letting him go or not?
In what degree am I responsible...
I don't know anymore
I had to kill another son today.
A boy I sired, someone I always expected to see again.
And he wanted to die.
Just like Connor...
//end firewall//
Sam Lawson was a good man once. He was a hero, someone I admired for his easy view of right and wrong. And I killed him.
He was naive, innocent, a child in many ways. And he thought that it was possible to be a good man. That a person can have a purpose in his or her life.
Yet once I sired him, that purpose fell away and he could never be what he was supposed to be. And it was my fault for not staking him when I had the chance.
Two of my line.
Spike and Lawson.
I let them both out of the sub, alive and well. Hoping to never see either of them again. They were family and it's hard to kill family. It's hard to destroy those last lines. When Kate killed Penn, it was like losing a part of myself, yet I knew it had to be done. Like I knew I had to kill Darla to protect Buffy.
And it nearly destroyed me.
Should I have killed them? The both of them?
Sam Lawson was a good man, he was a hero who wanted to save his crew, his friends, his mission. Once I sired him, he was a monster, and it went against everything that he'd been while alive.
Spike, annoying pest that he is, he killed thousands of people since I let him go that day. And he saved even more. So what was the right thing to do, letting him go or not?
In what degree am I responsible...
I don't know anymore