One Last Goodbye, 2 of 3
Upon returning to town and learning that the sheriff and deputy were dead, Dean was turned into the sheriff. Which was practically a wet dream come true. All in all it was a good day, he may have lost Gabriel again in a way but he had also been able to say goodbye to him, he was living out his childhood fantasy by being in the west and he had been made sheriff. Finch may have killed the men but Dean decided that for once it was all worth it. Gabriel was worth so much more to him then two men after saving so many. Even with the fact that Finch was now gone and once Sam got back with the Colt he began to ask what the Hell was going on. It had been worth it.
When they were jerked back into their time and Dean saw Cas, some of his happiness and contentedness was taking away. Dean moved to Cas's side and hovered over him feeling helpless as Bobby explained what had happened as did Sam. After several long moments of staring, Dean grabbed Cas's hand and guided him up to his room. Once there Dean carefully laid Castiel down on the bed and just curled around him. Deeply ashamed of what he had done to his lover, he had risked Cas's life to get time with Gabriel. In more than one way he had betrayed Cas and he didn't know how to fix it.
"Dean, what is on your mind? I can sense you are troubled...If its about not getting the ash, its fine. When I can I will search for a phoenix and smite it for you and collect the ashes.There is no need for you to feel guilty over any of this. I sent you back willing and what Rachel said..It was all lies. I happily help you even if...I haven't had as much time with you as I would like...What I said before is true, I'd much rather be with you then anywhere else. Never doubt that, Dean...No matter what happens, what you disc....No matter what happens, know that there is not a place or a person I'd rather be with. You make me happy and there is not a single thing I wouldn't be willing to do for you." Every word was driving a stake into Dean and thus he didn't listen carefully to ever word, which would have saved him later on.
"I know,Cas. I just....Its nothing. I'm just sorry that your..sister betrayed you and you got hurt. I hate it when you get hurt, no matter how...I would never hurt you, in any way if I could avoid it."And now he can. There was no reason other than his guilty to tell Cas the real reason for the trip to the past and his guilt was not a reason to hurt his lover. So Dean would keep what he had done to himself and make it up to him."Cas, I want to..make you feel better. Are you up for it?"
"While there is no need for you to make me feel better..I would greatly enjoy being with you as always."That said, Cas pulled Dean down to him and kissed him tenderly. Dean realized that it was time to let Gabriel go, clinging to him had almost cost him what he had now. It was the Winchester way to hold on to the past and ignore the present to such a degree that they had nothing but ghosts. His father had done it and in the end it left him alone till the day he died. Dean would not do the same. Gabriel was dead and Castiel wasn't. Cas loved him and while it was not the same, Dean loved him as well. He even cared about Balthazar to a certain extent.
A part of Dean though wished that he could see their wings as for some reason he had never been able to. And since he was unwilling to tell anyone that he could see and touch Gabriel's, he couldn't exactly just ask Cas. Not to mention Dean was worried that it would hurt Cas that he couldn't see his wings. It might be some angel thing like intense bond after all and to tell Cas that he was not as connected to him..It was not something that Dean could ever do to him. He had said goodbye to Gabriel and he would keep to that. He would give his all to Cas and to a lesser extent Balthazar.
So he turned he complete attention to Cas and worshiped his body until Cas was nothing more than a quivering mess of an angel begging for more. It took a while before Dean gave him more and when he did it was perfect. Entering Cas was like coming home, as it always is. The two of them came together, something they rarely manage to do as normally Dean lasts longer than the still inexperienced Cas. Afterward they lay together, wrapped around each other to such a degree that every single part of them were touching. It was nice, not cuddling of course as Dean didn't do cuddling but it was peaceful. Cas started to kinda pet his hair and Dean was about to scold him when he realized it did kinda feel good and as no one was there to see it, he just relaxed into his lover's touch. Until Cas suddenly stiffened and Dean jerked up and looked around for danger but found none.
Turning back to Cas he was about to demand an explanation when Cas spoke before he could."Its Balthazar. He wants to be let in." As Cas seemed hesitant, Dean had to ask,"Do you think you can trust him? He's done some pretty..stupid, douchbag things...Of course some you approved of."
Cas sighed,"I have apologized repeatedly about using you as a bait..I knew you would not be in any true danger and....I don't know..I thought I could trust Rachel...There was a time before we met that I would go to him whenever I had free time and we would just be...He..Anael once called us twins, I didn't get that reference until I spent t more time down here but it really was true..He is certainly the only one that I would allow anywhere near you but...He had his own agenda now and I am unsure what that means in the long run....But for now I believe he can be trusted."Dean looks at Cas and sees that he is sure of that so he just shrugs.
"Then let him in. He can heal you completely, right."Cas nods and disappears, presumable to take the anti-angel sigil briefly to let Balthazar in. Almost immediately after, they both popped back into the room and Balthazar ended up in his lap with a,"Hello,darling. What have you been up too?"Dean rolled his eyes and tried to shove the idiot off his lap but of course he could not budge the annoying angel. Balthazar just grinned and ground down, causing Dean to start to harden and to grab Balthazar and kiss him furiously. It swiftly became more as clothes was snapped away and the three of them crammed together onto the bed.Soon Dean was thrusting into Balthazar while Cas thrust into him. They moved as one in perfect sync, before he climaxed Dean pushed his body so it was flush against Cas. Desperate to feel every inch of Cas's body as he reached behind him to grab Cas head and kissed him passionately. Needing the connection as he came, followed closely by Cas in him and Balthazar on him.
Dean collapsed onto Balthazar, completely wrung out by all the sex he had. Balthazar laughed while Cas just smiled and held Dean, content to spend this quite time with his mate and his friend. Even though he really should get back to the War, he couldn't bring himself to just yet. Still there was one thing he could do while he was here." Balthazar, do you know where I could find a phoenix?" Dean smiled at him as he drifted of into an exhausted sleep. Balthazar looked at his brother at that rather odd question. Why in their Father's name would Cassie want a phoenix?
"I have no idea, Cassie. Its not like they are very useful..They wouldn't help you against Raphael unless you want to try to burn Raph to death. It'd be an interesting strategy and not one that anyone would ever suspect but....Ahh. Eve. Well,that is a good strategy. Get some of that in her and she gone for good. The Winchesters strike another big fish off the list. We should probably mount this one on the wall."Which of course caused Cas to frown while he tilted his head in confusion as he tried to figure out how they could mount Eve on the wall. The only mount he knew of outside of horses was a sex position that Dean was fond of and he highly doubted that was what Balthazar was referring to. If it was, then Cas would immediately not allow his brother anywhere near Dean as no one was allowed to betray Dean by laying with another. He was being betrayed enough by Cas as it was for Cas to allow another to do thusly. Even his brother.
In the end Cas was able to track down a phoenix, ironically it was Finch. He smited him and gave Dean the ashes. Dean made the ashes into bullets while swallowing some for insurance. Then they started to track her down and ended up in a small town in Oregon .Balthazar decided to tag along for th Hell of it. Long story short, the two angels became utterly useless as their powers were somehow bound so Dean spent most of his time worrying about them while trying to figure out what the Hell was going on. There was odd creatures everywhere, people were dead left and right and his angel lovers were suddenly powerless.Not of it made any sense at all and he was annoyed by it. Why couldn't anything go easy anymore? It had been years since anything was easy, since he had collected Sam from Stanford. After that everything went FUBAR, left and right things seem to get more and more complicated. Just two years ago he had helped avert the Apocalypse after all. What was with his life lately? That's all he really wanted to know.
Seeing Cas covered in blood after he did who knows what to the creature made him want to scream , added to it was when Cas didn't understand why he needed to get the kids to safety. Cas was changing and Dean didn't like it, he didn't like it at all. Gabriel was gone and he knew that he was slowly losing Cas to something he just didn't know..This war was changing Cas in a way the last one didn't. Which considering what Cas had all undergone last time, you'd think it would have been the other was around. Still, now wasn't the time to face the new issues he had with his lover. Cas stayed while Balthazar oddly enough stayed with them. Simply saying that something about all this made him uneasy.
The confrontation with Eve went wrong from the get go in the diner and Dean was actually wondering if they were all about to die.Learning that Crowley was alive was a blow he wasn't sure he would ever recover from. Especially as upon looking at Cas, he saw no surprise, no suspicion, no nothing. Dean knew his lover better then he knew anyone else save for Sammy and Gabriel. And so with a devastating , he knew that Cas had known that Crowley was still alive.
Still, that knowledge was put aside when Eve focused on him and prepared to bit him. To turn him into one of her creatures but was in actuality killing herself. Instead of biting him though, she was setting flying by...Quick turn to the door and Dean's breath caught. For standing there was Gabriel. Dean was so stunned that he completely missed Eve's spectacular death by way of a chainsaw,an anvil and a rabbit. Slowly Dean approached Gabriel until they were barely an inch apart and they simply stared into each others eyes.
Both were completely forgetting everyone else with them as they didn't matter, the only thing that mattered was that they were once again reunited.
Dean was the first to speak and it was one word,"How?"
"Simple really. After I spent a few decades running from what you had told me, I faced it and decided what to do...I needed to 'die' that day otherwise you wouldn't come back to tell me. So I..faked it.Lucy didn't kill me, he killed another copy of me.. He didn't teach me EVERYTHING I know...I love you, Dean. Nothing will ever take me from you, not even my idiot of a brother." Dean smiled and pulled Gabriel to him as they kissed for the first time in a 'century'. Once again it was like coming home.
Comments are like ambrosia, they give me POWERS