Wow...God is awesome
God is working in my heart. He is so busy, my mind is going crazy with all this God-inspired thinking. I am so thankful for God's gentle persistent voice that calls me to submit more and more of my heart to him, to learn to love him more, and to put my entire trust in his BEAUTIFUL God-written plan for my life. Sometimes it is hard for me to surrender my life to God, I like holding onto even the smallest amount of control because I have my own inspired ideas for my life. But God never stops pursuing me and calling me with his whispering voice. One verse God has been laying on my heart is Psalms 37:4..."Delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desires of you heart." The first time I really thought about this verse was this year at college. I read it on a frame one of the girls in my hall got from her boyfriend. But I guess I didn't understand the verse because I had such a selfish understanding...I thought, if someone submits and surrenders to God, God will make all of the self inspired dreams of this person come true. But that is so far from God's intent. To me, this verse communicated God's loving and tender nature. When I do surrender everything to God and focus on him alone, yes, God will begin to make things happen and it will be BEAUTIFUL. But the things that happen won't be the desires of my heart...God will change those self-inspired desires into his desires and it will be an awesome thing! As I dwell on Jesus, He fills my heart with His desires for my life and I am completely filled with him.
God is taking me on a journey, a journey that will shape my heart in a trusting heart. I long to be able to trust God with every part of my life, but it is so hard. But God is never finished with the work inside me, he keeps pursuing me with His amazing love. And while it may be hard to surrender my self-inspired desires, what God has planned is more awesome than I can even imagine, and it is a plan that will never disappoint.
God is taking me on a journey, a journey that will shape my heart in a trusting heart. I long to be able to trust God with every part of my life, but it is so hard. But God is never finished with the work inside me, he keeps pursuing me with His amazing love. And while it may be hard to surrender my self-inspired desires, what God has planned is more awesome than I can even imagine, and it is a plan that will never disappoint.