Blerg

[angelbbad8789]

So Justin and I broke up, and he wanted to get back together with me, but now I want to get back with him, and I don't think he wants to get back with me.. I think it's stupid for us to just throw away 3 years of our lives because of one stupid decision I made. I have a crush on another guy, and I'm 18 years old. I only get to be this age once and I want to go out, party, hang out with guys and do whatever I want without having the looming threat of being broken up with if I do something stupid. Not to mention once I start preforming, if I can, I will have to travel places and he won't be able to just pick up and go. I can think of so many reasons that we should break up, but at the same time I can think of so many reasons why we shouldn't. I don't know what I want, or what to do.. HELP!!!

... I hate my life

P.S. Audition is Friday, I'm nervous, but I really want to get it over with and find out how much money I'm going to get from them, if any. Wish me luck?