Life goes on....
My head feels like it is everywhere right now. I don't know what to make of life. School is kicking my ass, work is becoming overwhelming and I don't know how I feel about anything. One minute, I am convincing myself to trust... the next minute I am pissed off for ever even thinking about getting back into a relationship. I want my space, but when I get time to myself, I am crazy wondering if he is cheating on me again. Now, recent findings make me feel even less secure in our relationship. Right now I have no confidence in myself or my crumbling relationship. Does he want to be with me? He says he does... but he apparently says a lot of things he doesn't mean or think about... so what's to say he isn't just blowing me some BS too? He did it not long ago... why shouldn't I believe that he's doing the same thing again?
Back to class......
Back to class......