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eh
so this journal entry will probably only stay up for a couple of days but for now it's here.
more twists in the college story, leaving me attending southeastern so it appears. but the moment I get used to the idea it will change, so what does it matter trying to figure it out. what's the use trying to figure anything out really it's all in Gods plan anyway and it doesn't really find out if i find out now or later, it's all going to end up the same. Kind of sick of waiting though, but God doesn't really care too much about my comfort right now. Hopefully he really does care about my character because it doesn't seem to be benefiting either.
I'm sick of not allowing myself to leave this place mentally. It doesn't matter where I go physically...I keep telling myself it will be the end all but it's not true. Surroundings might make it easier but ultimately it is up to me to set myself free and it's my own weakness that has kept me from being.
Glad some are getting better, some are getting their freedom ,
one day I will too.