Follow Me, Everything Is Alright
I hate days like this. I sit at home doing absolutely nothing listening to music and singing. I realize how much of a loser I am but days like this just pretty much just rubs it in.... Exactly what I want right?! *rolls eyes*
On a happier note I got to meet Erin yesterday. She's soooo adorable. I got to hold her pretty much the whole time I was there. She just slept the whole time and looked sooo comfy haha. I wish I had the life of a newborn! It'd be so easy! I want life to be easy again.
If I'm not married or in a serious relationship by the time i'm 25 Dave said he was gonna marry me (if i wanted of course.. he isn't gonna force it upon me). He's so silly sometimes.
I talked to him for a long time on the phone last night.
Joe's been out w/ his friends the past 3 days... I haven't talked to him since friday after school when he said bye. Then he went to prac and the girls had a meeting. He talked to lana and some other people but not to me. ugh. sometimes i swear! I just wanna scream! fuck relationships. I'm trying to be really understanding about this whole thing and really patient but sometimes gah! I've given him everything. I'm always there for hime when he needs me or if he needs to get out of the house. I've given up so much stuff and quit a lot of stuff (of course they were things that i needed to quit cuz they were nowhere near good for me but still). It jsut seems, sometimes, i'm doing way too much and he's doing nothing... kinda like he doesn't care if we do fail. I know that's prolly not the case but sometimes that's how it feels and sometimes I jsut don't know what to do about it. I'm sick of this feeling.. it's the same feeling that I always get in relationships... it makes me wonder am i fit for a relationship i'm prolly not meant to be in 1...there's prolly no1 out there for me, but until the day I die, i'll continue trying, I don't wanna end up alone. Of course, at this rate it feels like I will.
Today everything seems wrong. Nothing seems right... at all.
Only 1 week left of track. That's pretty exciting. a lil less than a month till graduation :D!!! woo woo!
I'm lonely.. I miss .... everyone
It's so cold in this house, nothing can warm me up. I have about a bazillion layers on and i'm still freezing.
I think I'm gonna go take a nap now.
byez for now... till next time *mwah*
luv alwayz,
♥Jenna Lee♥
On a happier note I got to meet Erin yesterday. She's soooo adorable. I got to hold her pretty much the whole time I was there. She just slept the whole time and looked sooo comfy haha. I wish I had the life of a newborn! It'd be so easy! I want life to be easy again.
If I'm not married or in a serious relationship by the time i'm 25 Dave said he was gonna marry me (if i wanted of course.. he isn't gonna force it upon me). He's so silly sometimes.
I talked to him for a long time on the phone last night.
Joe's been out w/ his friends the past 3 days... I haven't talked to him since friday after school when he said bye. Then he went to prac and the girls had a meeting. He talked to lana and some other people but not to me. ugh. sometimes i swear! I just wanna scream! fuck relationships. I'm trying to be really understanding about this whole thing and really patient but sometimes gah! I've given him everything. I'm always there for hime when he needs me or if he needs to get out of the house. I've given up so much stuff and quit a lot of stuff (of course they were things that i needed to quit cuz they were nowhere near good for me but still). It jsut seems, sometimes, i'm doing way too much and he's doing nothing... kinda like he doesn't care if we do fail. I know that's prolly not the case but sometimes that's how it feels and sometimes I jsut don't know what to do about it. I'm sick of this feeling.. it's the same feeling that I always get in relationships... it makes me wonder am i fit for a relationship i'm prolly not meant to be in 1...there's prolly no1 out there for me, but until the day I die, i'll continue trying, I don't wanna end up alone. Of course, at this rate it feels like I will.
Today everything seems wrong. Nothing seems right... at all.
Only 1 week left of track. That's pretty exciting. a lil less than a month till graduation :D!!! woo woo!
I'm lonely.. I miss .... everyone
It's so cold in this house, nothing can warm me up. I have about a bazillion layers on and i'm still freezing.
I think I'm gonna go take a nap now.
byez for now... till next time *mwah*
luv alwayz,
♥Jenna Lee♥