(no subject)
well i aint been up to alot lately. i aint go to school yesterday cuz i've been so exhasted lately. cuz 4 like the past week i aint been doin nuthin but gointo school, then goin to work, then chillin till like 3am. and i needed a break. i slept in till like 1:30. which was a bad idea cuz i found out that midquater tomorrow. and i aint been doin none of my homework and shit. and i snapped out on my 1st hour teacher and i think hes gonna try to get me suspended. but i dont give a shit. thats more of a break. so wut eva. on another note me and my dad been gettin into it everyday lately. i just keep snappin on him lately. over lil shit too. i dunno. like yesterday i snapped cuz we got into a fight and i went in my room and turned on the radio and shit and he came in and told me to turn it down and i just threw it off my dresser and everythin fell off it. and he was in shock cuz i didnt give a fuck and i didnt care that he was mad and all frustrated. i dont kno y i cant have any kind of relationships lately. i mean usually its just wit guys. but lately its everyone. i mean i even got in a fight wit my mom and shit. i aint even call her on her b-day. but thats just cuz me adn my dad got into it so i bounced and was gone till like 2am. so yea. but i wrote her a letter and mailed it today. my dads goin outta town tomorrow till sun. which im happy bout except that i gotta work. but i still am gonna kick it wit my homies and shit. we finna get crunk. its like thats all i can do lately and its really startin to scare me. like now its like when i aint smokin or drinkin im just all pissed off or depressed. i dunno. like i cant handle shit wit out it. and thats a scary thought. but i dont kno wut to do bout it. its the only thin i kno to do when im pissed of and shit. i dunno. and i've been talkin to my ex tavar who goes to roosevelt and shit and i was gonna see if he wanted to come to homecomin wit me cuz he aint got no one to go wit and i thought that he likes me agian cuz he always tryin to talk to me and give me a hug and if i dont see him and i dont stop to say hi and give him a hug he chases me down the hallway. just to give me a hug. but then i found out he got a gurl. had one 4 bout 2 months. so yea. im shit outta luck. i dont even think ima go to homecomin. wuts the point. all i see is happy couples. and im just all alone. y am i always alone??? id ont understand it. i need help. i need to be saved from this shitty life. i need to be let free from all this. from all this pain. i dunno im rambullin. so ima shut up and try to sleep. which i kno i wont cuz i never can sop i'll probably go chill wit my home gurl from work when my dad goes to bed. so holla
-angie