i wanna be little again :[
i just wish i could turn back time n start all over. life sucks as u get older. it realli fuckin does! last nite i picked up my heather<33 WATTA NITE! we had soooooooo much fun! and a bunch of laughs! i love her soooo much u guys have no idea! i was supposed to go 2 the mall and target but i didnt end up goin. me n heather called a few people and we ended up chillin in STO... oh man! the place i chilled at brought back sooo many memories and i wish i was little again. there was so many young people there and i was like I USTA CHILL HERE! it blew man. but we were all dancin 2 music in my car and laughin n talkin about boys. it was good times. so i drove heather home n then went back 2 my house, watched the red sox beat ANA's ASSSSSSS :] then went ta bed. i cant believe ortiz is suspended. i mean, he shouldnt have flipped out and it was a strike. but still. lol. sooooo todayyyyyyy i woke up, came 2 the business for a bit then went to order my contacts.. ALL BY MYSELF!! i drove from STO to melrose all alone... drove on RT1 ALL ALONE and then went to target all alone n shopped. it was GREAT! i NEVER go ANYWHERE alone so it was deff a change 4 me lol so i got some sandals n my dad a few things. then i got mike from work, and we went to the target in medford cuz i needed a bathing suit. we're goin campin this weekend and i needed one cuz they have pools and jacuzzi's there :] its soooooo cute! its a white skimpy top w/these bottoms that are shorts but have a cute design on them. i tried them on @ my house for mike and hes like MmMmmm! i lost weight in my belly so i actualli feel proud in a bathin suit for once. i was so happy lol. MORE BEACH DAYS HERE I COME!!!! so anyways. we came back here after target and me n my mom went to a Tarot Card Reader down the street from my dads business. for a half hour she talked to me about me n mike... no1 else. im so happy that she didnt say ne thing about my x b/f cuz she always does. shes always like "he misses u n loves u and u love him blah blah!" and this time she didnt cuz im sooo over the little kid games but anyways, she told me some shit about mike i didnt wanna hear @ ALL! i cant say it on here, cuz hed prob b PISSED @ me. but we talked about it-kinda. all i did was cry for 4 hrs straight. life realli does suck. i dunno who to trust ne more or anything. maybe im juss not good enuff 4 ne1 or maybe ppl use me. but whatever the deal is, ill get over it. imma b stronger than i have been and be more happy n not worry about ne thing cuz i kno im such a better person than all these little kid games so i dont know anymore. im juss gunna let each day go by and whatever happens, HAPPENS. i kno ill find some1 who loves me for me and not wut i do or anything. theres someone for every1 i juss havent found him yet....i will and ill b happy and i deserve it cuz im sick of bein hurt n lied to. i cant take it ne more. i WILL find some1 who doesnt lie or cheat. I WILL! there ARE nice guys out there u juss needa take ur time n let him come 2 u :] thats all i have to say but ill update if sumthin good happens <3 yas!