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Hey everyone, sorry its been awhile since I last updated, but I've been busy. I don't even have time for those who matter the most right now. And these are my best friends. I hate being called a stranger. But I need to figure out me and it seems that no one wants that for me. I have been working and if I haven't been working I have been at the gym....which a lot of people have been objecting too as well. I can really just give a shit less. its something that I have been enjoying doing. I even got my self a personal trainer, his name is Rob... and he is a doll baby. Ten years younger ((in the words of Joey Lawerance)) WOAH!!!!... I haven't had time to fiqure out what I want to do in life, I know I want to write, but that is not going anywhere because I haven't been able to concentrate to save the life of me. I want to be involved in scouts, but it seems that I have failed at that as well. Royal Pinapple up the Ass screwed up. ..... I am tired of being a failure to myself and everyone around me. I know the ones that care that are reading this are like going to call me and say "Mick, your'e not a failure". I am just tired of limiting my standards to what I think is posssible, I don't want possible anymore, I want beyond that.. which isn't happening. And right now I dont give a shit. I'm sorry if it seems like I am burring m yself into a dark hole. But it seems that the friends that you thought where were friends are not really your friends anymore. Aside from family(friends), I only have 3 best friends in this world. If you think you know a person... just beware because that person can turn out to be someone completely different than what you thought they were. I need to escape for awhile, but my escape isnt coming until December, but that is with the ones I am trying to get away from. Anyone want a roomie??? I pay my own board and do my own laundry.
Out!
Micki