fuck!
Ok so right now I don't even know what the fuck im going to do. Matt made the decision to stop smoking weed for me becuase he knows i don't like it. He had the option of still doing it as long as he didn't tell me but he thought he would feel dishonest so he told me he wouldn't do it! Well today at work i get a voice mail from him goes like this
" Hey hun um we need to talk. I feel really really bad but i have to tell you something and I know your going to be upset. Well yesterday and today I really fucked up. I got really really right yesterday and today. I know your really really mad right now but im really sorry I did it and I really wanna talk to you bout it! Im sorry i messed up but call me when you get this and we can talk"
So now im so fucking mad and sad and disappointed! I mean all i've done is shit to prove myself to him and build his trust for me. I've fucking turned down guyz numbers, I pushed an ex off of me when he tried to do shit with me...and now he goes and breaks any trust I ever had in him. I mean im not going to be drastic and break up with him im just really hurt right now! I can't believe he would go and do that...not only once but twice. Yea i would be mad if he did it once but to KNOW its going to hurt me and to do it again I mean what the fuck! I wish he had livejournal so he could see this and maybe understand my view point but he doesn't so maybe i'll just read this entry to him. I just hope once we get back to where we were before i found out he doesnt fuck up again to loose all my trust. Hes going to have to earn it all back and its going to talk a LONG time, I hope he understands that, but at the same time I don't want to throw away a relationship I have with such a nice amazing guy over a stupid decision on his part. At least he had the balls to call me and tell me he fucked up rather than to let me find out down the road from the people he smoked with, cuz we all know one of the 2 will slip up eventually.
Yea i've tried weed a few times which is why I dont agree with people doing it. In my oppinion their is no real point to it. You spend lots of money to be relaxed, sleepy and hungry and the effects don't even last all that long. I just think its retarded and pointless and thats why I don't like it!
Well im off to prolly think or just lay in bed disappointed...blah
" Hey hun um we need to talk. I feel really really bad but i have to tell you something and I know your going to be upset. Well yesterday and today I really fucked up. I got really really right yesterday and today. I know your really really mad right now but im really sorry I did it and I really wanna talk to you bout it! Im sorry i messed up but call me when you get this and we can talk"
So now im so fucking mad and sad and disappointed! I mean all i've done is shit to prove myself to him and build his trust for me. I've fucking turned down guyz numbers, I pushed an ex off of me when he tried to do shit with me...and now he goes and breaks any trust I ever had in him. I mean im not going to be drastic and break up with him im just really hurt right now! I can't believe he would go and do that...not only once but twice. Yea i would be mad if he did it once but to KNOW its going to hurt me and to do it again I mean what the fuck! I wish he had livejournal so he could see this and maybe understand my view point but he doesn't so maybe i'll just read this entry to him. I just hope once we get back to where we were before i found out he doesnt fuck up again to loose all my trust. Hes going to have to earn it all back and its going to talk a LONG time, I hope he understands that, but at the same time I don't want to throw away a relationship I have with such a nice amazing guy over a stupid decision on his part. At least he had the balls to call me and tell me he fucked up rather than to let me find out down the road from the people he smoked with, cuz we all know one of the 2 will slip up eventually.
Yea i've tried weed a few times which is why I dont agree with people doing it. In my oppinion their is no real point to it. You spend lots of money to be relaxed, sleepy and hungry and the effects don't even last all that long. I just think its retarded and pointless and thats why I don't like it!
Well im off to prolly think or just lay in bed disappointed...blah