Suffering Inside
Sometimes
Late at night
I wonder what Heaven
Could be like
And I imagine a place where you can re-live your best memories. Young love, adventure, chasing boys around the playground, feeling safe, moments of joy, childish secrets. I imagine that you can fast forward though the heartache and disappointment. The tears.
Life with a remote control.
Or perhaps the chance to do it again. To learn from mistakes, or make them.
Maybe we can live a lifetime in one moment - replaying it again and again. Finding comfort.
I try to go back in my memories. I find them incomplete. I try to find comfort in the sunshine of better days. But my mind has an evil - an intruder. It blocks the sun like a cloud and I'm left with four dark walls and the sound of sirens outside the window. I'm left alone.
.
Late at night
I wonder what Heaven
Could be like
And I imagine a place where you can re-live your best memories. Young love, adventure, chasing boys around the playground, feeling safe, moments of joy, childish secrets. I imagine that you can fast forward though the heartache and disappointment. The tears.
Life with a remote control.
Or perhaps the chance to do it again. To learn from mistakes, or make them.
Maybe we can live a lifetime in one moment - replaying it again and again. Finding comfort.
I try to go back in my memories. I find them incomplete. I try to find comfort in the sunshine of better days. But my mind has an evil - an intruder. It blocks the sun like a cloud and I'm left with four dark walls and the sound of sirens outside the window. I'm left alone.
.