19 years and yet not a single cuddle given
I have recently realized that I have never felt another body next to mine as I sleep. Sleeping, from my perspective, has always happened with me alone in bed, snuggling into my stuffed animal that I've had since I was a small child (it's name is Dog and guess what animal it is - yupp, dog).
To be quite honest that realization shocked me. I've always been a person who likes to hug people, to be in close contact with my friends and some family members. Why is it then that I've never slept next to someone? I've had friends, but not that many in numbers, so the one's I've had I've made sure to put some effort into keeping. In sleepovers I've always slept on an extra mattress on the floor or something similar, but never together with someone, even though I'd like to. Not necessarily in a romantic way, but simply to feel someone else next to me - to feel close to someone. There hasn't been any boyfriends or girlfriends so far either, so I haven't really had the chance to try it out together with anyone I fancy.
I guess the point is that I'm starting to realize what I've missed out on, especially the smaller things, such as cuddling and sleeping next to another warm body.
Until next time. ✿