I don't feel to good
You know how you feel when that one person you want has moved on and you feel like such a fucking retard for ever passing up the offer? Yeah, well that's how I feel. I've been working out and getting prepared for the fashion show this spring. I've been watching a lot of movies lately. I swear I'm trying to live out these fantasies in my head thinking that one day something romantic and perfect like that would happen to me. Maybe I'm just wasting my time.
I have no one to spend Valentines with. It really sucks since last year I spent it alone. I'm just really pissed off at myself right now. I read his entries and blah! I mean...I'm happy for him but then it's like...I don't know. I feel so fucking jaded right now. Hopefully things will clear up. I haven't felt like shit in such along time it's a feeling that I kinda miss. I want to mope around so bad, but I know I can't do that to myself no matter how much I'd like to just throw everything away.
It feels like I'm missing something real important in my life. I don't think it's really a significant other but something spiritual wise or I don't know. I just don't feel right. Almost like I want to die and haunt everyone. I'd be forgotten in a matter of 2 months, if I'm lucky, when I'm dead. People just forget to care that much I guess. Plus I'm not important.
Where the hell is missy_rayder? I'm going to cry if she doesn't update.
I have no one to spend Valentines with. It really sucks since last year I spent it alone. I'm just really pissed off at myself right now. I read his entries and blah! I mean...I'm happy for him but then it's like...I don't know. I feel so fucking jaded right now. Hopefully things will clear up. I haven't felt like shit in such along time it's a feeling that I kinda miss. I want to mope around so bad, but I know I can't do that to myself no matter how much I'd like to just throw everything away.
It feels like I'm missing something real important in my life. I don't think it's really a significant other but something spiritual wise or I don't know. I just don't feel right. Almost like I want to die and haunt everyone. I'd be forgotten in a matter of 2 months, if I'm lucky, when I'm dead. People just forget to care that much I guess. Plus I'm not important.
Where the hell is missy_rayder? I'm going to cry if she doesn't update.