Healthy
I love being healthy!! You never realize how much you stop being able to do when you're sick until you're healthy and you can just keep going:) I guess I never realized how long it's been since I've been on a strong medication that was geared specifically to combat my Systemic JRA. The last time I was able to be on a consistent medication like kineret was right before I got super sick with Macrophage Activation Syndrome in 2008. I can't believe it has been so long since I've been properly treated.
I feel like my personality changes. I have different goals, more ambitious. I'm not content to be still. I take risks on activities I never would before, rock climbing, running with Caleb playing soccer at the park, spending hours at the pool, joining a volleyball team, going surfing, hiking anywhere, everywhere! You name it, I want to do it. I feel like I can reach for bigger things. My focus is not on myself anymore, it's on others around me, it's on how I can do something for the ideas and charities that I'm passionate about. I'm happy and I'm more compassionate. I feel like reaching for things I never thought I could. Like singing.
Singing and music is one thing in life that gives me pure joy. When I'm sick my ability to sing diminishes. The joints in my chest and rib cage inflame and the lymph nodes in my throat swell so much that even swallowing hurts let alone singing and my muscles are too weak. But when I'm healthy, my rib cage can expand and I can take in huge gulps of air, and with that air my muscles and vocal cords can shape and push that air into a powerful and beautiful sound. I LOVE IT! It's the one thing in life that I'm truly, truly good at. And when I'm healthy I think I just might have enough energy to be able to do something with my voice one day:)
I feel like my personality changes. I have different goals, more ambitious. I'm not content to be still. I take risks on activities I never would before, rock climbing, running with Caleb playing soccer at the park, spending hours at the pool, joining a volleyball team, going surfing, hiking anywhere, everywhere! You name it, I want to do it. I feel like I can reach for bigger things. My focus is not on myself anymore, it's on others around me, it's on how I can do something for the ideas and charities that I'm passionate about. I'm happy and I'm more compassionate. I feel like reaching for things I never thought I could. Like singing.
Singing and music is one thing in life that gives me pure joy. When I'm sick my ability to sing diminishes. The joints in my chest and rib cage inflame and the lymph nodes in my throat swell so much that even swallowing hurts let alone singing and my muscles are too weak. But when I'm healthy, my rib cage can expand and I can take in huge gulps of air, and with that air my muscles and vocal cords can shape and push that air into a powerful and beautiful sound. I LOVE IT! It's the one thing in life that I'm truly, truly good at. And when I'm healthy I think I just might have enough energy to be able to do something with my voice one day:)