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so its 320am.
im laying on the couch with my lap top talking to an old friend of mine overseas.
i havent done this in a while.
first the whole sitting up till 3am chatting thing.
and secondly the laughing with him like this - in ages.
:)
i decided tonight that i am taking a break from facebook.
had a blow out with a friend of mine & to be honest, facebook is doing my head in right now.
I have been (and still am) a big fan of facebook - like anything in life though - it has to be in balance.
The downside of face book is that people read into things.
People can become petty and insecure.
At a glance, one can go to a "friends" page and read all that is going on there.
What the persons status says.
Who has said what about that status.
You can follow conversations.
Its all there. In words. On the screen.
I have been an active facebook member for a long long time now - on it every day & night.
Staying in touch with my friends - and what is happening in their lives.
At a glance I can read all that is going on with my friends..
Its a quick easy way to leave a line or two in a comment to stay in touch with people.
However.
Lately, I have seen problems surrounding facebook usage and issues that have arisen because of people's status messages.
This has got me to thinking about the whole facebook thing.
When used in the right way - its awesome.
When used in the wrong way - its damaging.
So i am staying away from it for a while.
If people need me they can sms me, call me or email me or come over!
My life works.
It works well and my life hasnt worked well before now.
18 months ago my whole life turned upside down and inside out and i couldnt see a way out.
I have ALWAYS been able to see a way out of the darkness before.
For the first time ever - i was worried. REALLY worried.
Had i lost my faith?
I had a spiritual crisis.
If i had lost my faith , then, for me, it wasnt worth being here, anymore.
I seriously thought that i had lost my faith.
Faith is the only thing i had.
Faith is what has gotten me through my ENTIRE life.
My spiritual faith has been what has made me pick myself up from the floor. Time and time again.
My faith kept me hanging on, when everything seemed insurmountable.
Little did i know - i was facing the biggest challenge of my life.
I talk now, about this, and can clearly see the events and the circumstances that surrounded the inevitable "end" for me as i knew life.
But of course, at the time, when you are right smack bang in the middle of something - you cant see the light.
My faith was being put to the test in ways i could never have imagined.
18 months ago - I healed.
18 months ago - i was reborn.
Today , all these months down the track - it remains the same.
Unshakeable.
Consistent.
Pure.
A Metamorphosis took place.
I left the old me behind & emerged , for the first time, ME.
the real me.
the me that was born divine.
the essence
the soul
the spark
the light
the creator
what a weight to have shed.
the old no longer served me.