What have I done...?
Okay, it's been days now, and I STILL can't get hold of Connor. His cell phone's not even ringing anymore, and I can't call his parents because... well, how am I supposed to explain why I'm looking for their son?
I've been out patrolling for the last few nights in the hope that I catch sight of him or pick up his scent, but so far there's been nothing. If I hadn't been so wrapped up in Spike, I would have noticed sooner, there might have been something to help me find him. Now it just feels like it's too little, too late. It's starting to occupy my every thought now, and I'm sure Spike thinks that I'm having second thoughts about us, I've been so distracted.
If you're reading this, Spike, it's really not you so please don't go all withdrawn on me again. I need you now more than ever. I'm so worried that something's happened to Connor I can't even think straight any more, so I'm sorry if you feel neglected - I know I've been a pain to live with these last few days.
Why am I always failing the people I care about the most...?
I've been out patrolling for the last few nights in the hope that I catch sight of him or pick up his scent, but so far there's been nothing. If I hadn't been so wrapped up in Spike, I would have noticed sooner, there might have been something to help me find him. Now it just feels like it's too little, too late. It's starting to occupy my every thought now, and I'm sure Spike thinks that I'm having second thoughts about us, I've been so distracted.
If you're reading this, Spike, it's really not you so please don't go all withdrawn on me again. I need you now more than ever. I'm so worried that something's happened to Connor I can't even think straight any more, so I'm sorry if you feel neglected - I know I've been a pain to live with these last few days.
Why am I always failing the people I care about the most...?