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[angel_thief]

It makes sense now, why I couldn't find him. He probably returned to his world, just like I'd done before. So maybe, there's still a chance he might come back. He might come back, and then things will be how they were before....

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The apartment feels too empty now. I keep making too much food, and preparing an extra bento.

All his stuff is

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[katayoku_tenshi]

I'm sorry that you've lost your friend as well.

I must try to continue to believe that having friends is better than not having friends; and yet if we didn't have friends, then we wouldn't feel such distress when they left... there's no way to win when death and loss stack the deck, is there.

I'd really thought that this was the Promised Land, until people began to die. Foolish of me, I suppose...

[angel_thief]

Even if I never see Satoshi again, and it never stops hurting, I'll still have the memories, memories which I would've never gained if we hadn't become so close. I want to believe that those memories are worth all the pain, I really do.

[katayoku_tenshi]

I hope so as well.

Lady Caterina says that it isn't offensive to diplomacy to ask things like this -- Would it be comforting to tell me your favorite memories of him, or would it be distressing to think of it?

If you would like to share memories, I'd like to listen. I enjoy the opportunity to learn more about how friendships are begun and maintained.

[angel_thief]

Favorite memory? I think it was probably the times we spent walking home.

Satoshi never liked to talk much, so usually we would walk in silence. But....I liked those times, because we got to just spend time with each other, without really worrying about much.

[katayoku_tenshi]

That sounds like a wonderful memory. The value of silence is often underappreciated, but the combination of peace and the quiet born of simple understanding... it's one of the treasures that anyone can share, and that no one can steal the value of, once you have it safe in your mind and your heart.

A treasure better than gold, at that. No one would launch a war to take a memory.

[angel_thief]

What about you Sephiroth-san? What memories of your friends do you cherish?

[katayoku_tenshi]

It seems that all the memories I truly cherish come from this world.

The first time I saw Cloud truly laugh, without regret or concern or anxiety.

The expression on Aelita's face the first time that she tasted a peach pie.

Playing Frisbee with Zack at midnight, regardless of the dark, because we both could.

Meeting my human mother for the first time, and my mother's former mental host, and all the new friends that I've met since I came; all the people I could never have met in my own world...

[angel_thief]

So your most cherished memories are those where the people you care about are happy, right?

When I think back on all the things that have happened since arriving here, all the people I've met and all the things I've experience, it makes me think that the pain right now is worth it, because even if I could, I wouldn't change a thing.

[katayoku_tenshi]

...Yes, that's it precisely. It is unexpectedly pleasant to be surrounded by people who are smiling. That didn't happen often, in the Shinra government.

There are certainly things that I would change, save that they are not within my power -- Mother's destruction, the murders, the hauntings, the disappearances... I would change those if I could. I am stubborn that way.

But of the things that are in my power, things not already past and fixed immutable in time, I'm not certain if there is anything I would choose to change.

[angel_thief]

It's definitely a nice feeling, especially when those people are those you care about very much.