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life always seems to find a way to make even the calmest day into a contradiction in what is felt inside.
when the soul wants to be lively but the body is too tired to move from the bed, or when someone compliments you but you feel ugly.
hehe
i just made a stencil of a bear that should make someone very happy.everything is good. all in all everything is, fromt the rosecolor petals of the flowers to the soft velvety wings of the butterflies that flutter around when there is nothign else in the world that could be more perfect.
today was good, i mean i watched tv and ate and all the good stuff, i made my momy's teddy kitty for xmas and i saw the birth of 1,000 sea horses. but my light wasnt here. that wasnt the sad thign, at least i think it wasnt. i mean i didnt miss him terribly. lol. bad thing to say, i mean its not like i havent seen him in a week
i was ok, but then i started to feel sad, i made ryan sad and i was alone, i felt dirty.
then i read an email from my cousin and that made me feel dirtier since i cant do what she asks of me soon enough . - sad laugh- i mean how can i spend the night chatting withher to sleep if i cant even see her. it makes me tear and sad all inside.
i am happy though. Don is coming down toomorrow, oh i cant wait to see him. 3 years is a long time to wait for an awsome person - even if they dissapeared w/o you knowing -
well i guess this is just mess made by my hormonal imbalance that yesterday created. at least i hope it was.
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love to all those who came upon this note to life
it really doesnt exist
i think i'll take the blue pill tonight, and go down the rabbit whole and try to stay there for the time being.
love sus
life always seems to find a way to make even the calmest day into a contradiction in what is felt inside.
when the soul wants to be lively but the body is too tired to move from the bed, or when someone compliments you but you feel ugly.
hehe
i just made a stencil of a bear that should make someone very happy.everything is good. all in all everything is, fromt the rosecolor petals of the flowers to the soft velvety wings of the butterflies that flutter around when there is nothign else in the world that could be more perfect.
today was good, i mean i watched tv and ate and all the good stuff, i made my momy's teddy kitty for xmas and i saw the birth of 1,000 sea horses. but my light wasnt here. that wasnt the sad thign, at least i think it wasnt. i mean i didnt miss him terribly. lol. bad thing to say, i mean its not like i havent seen him in a week
i was ok, but then i started to feel sad, i made ryan sad and i was alone, i felt dirty.
then i read an email from my cousin and that made me feel dirtier since i cant do what she asks of me soon enough . - sad laugh- i mean how can i spend the night chatting withher to sleep if i cant even see her. it makes me tear and sad all inside.
i am happy though. Don is coming down toomorrow, oh i cant wait to see him. 3 years is a long time to wait for an awsome person - even if they dissapeared w/o you knowing -
well i guess this is just mess made by my hormonal imbalance that yesterday created. at least i hope it was.
-------------------------------HERE------------------------------------
love to all those who came upon this note to life
it really doesnt exist
i think i'll take the blue pill tonight, and go down the rabbit whole and try to stay there for the time being.
love sus