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[angel_of_smiles]

dunno why in the past way i have felt so lonley. i mean like i am alone and that all that i have is myself and no one else. i mean krys is there dont get me wrong but he feels farther away than in a long time this past 4 days. i just feel like there is something i am leaving unattended to myself because i am worrying for other things. i mean i have had a horrible last 4 days. i have been make to feel like a have a million flaws and i have been hurt in my right hand way too many times. i just feel like there is somthing missing and that something is hiding from me and taking with itself half of my happiness with it. i am a little down in mood and it seems to be showing in everyone. sigh. i miss just being happy with what i had, i miss closing my eyes and seeing krysy by my side instead of closing my eyes and needing him so much that my skin crawls in urge of having him hold me because i feel so weak and so unprotected. so lonley.

love sus