crappy

[angel_of_smiles]

College is coming up and well, study and no time for worrying and for stupid problems is hopefully just around the corner. you know, maybe that is why i miss my home, i am able to be completly open without being judge on how much i "understand" the way the person im talking to thinks. that is ridiculous if you ask me, but hey... the only one i can be completly and 100% free with my words and the one whom, seriously doesnt make me feel like crap because of whom i like and dont like is very far away, and i wont be seeing her in a while. maybe that is what i need, i need her, i need to be able to talk to someone my own gender, someone who has felt the same way and not people (males)whom just try to simpatizise because they are your friends. dont get me wrong i like my friends, but sometimes i do miss having more than 20 people i could just sit in a circle and talk to or maybe i miss the most is the comfort in middle school with my group of all girl friends who would just say, hey lets go iceskating and maybe you will feel better, not "you dont undertand and you never will" god i really hate that.

i mean is it right to be told that there is someone else, but that you should be ok with it......i dout it....

i am not the type of person who can just get over shit that affects me and that makes me more subsetible to the words of others. f.... i really could go for a room full of drinks where i dont have any commitments to any one.

hope everyone is allright and hope that you are all going to the college you wanted to go, in the major you wanted to go into and feeling like you need freshman year to be over.

love sus