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[angel_of_smiles]

today was great. spent the whole entire day with Chris and it was the most amazing thing, no anger, no regret, no sadness, just plain happy. went to the pool a lot of the time and stayed there for a long time it was marvelous, then we went into the sauna but i had to get out cause my body lost feeling and i almost passed out. then we just talked and laughed in the shade and came back to my house, we were suppost to go to the mall but since im soo soft i could barely walk it hurt the bottom of my feet. so we watched training day, and then i took him home...all happy....

well until i got in the car and my mom decided to be a "strict" mom for the first time and got angry because i had left my rings in the wrong place, (i dont blame her. i am a total mess) then i asked her if i could see Chris tomorrow and for the first time in my life she said "no" i got all quiet and sad and didnt talk , came home found my phone and told Chris the news, he got sad ::i feel like shit for making him sad:: oh god ill leave it at that....

i love you

sus