I've fallen.
I've become a Fallen Angel.
Elijah has long since disappeared. I don't know where he's gone or what he's doing or if he misses me or if he still loves me... I think he melded. I don't know and I wish I did.
My anger and hatred toward Demon Marton and the others who did those awful things to him when he was abducted haven't gone anywhere, haven't faded. My visions of them because of my bond with Lij haven't gone away, even though I know he's healed. Losing Elijah was just the last straw.
That is what caused me to Fall.
I don't know what the fuck to do now. I'm not what I was, nor do I know what I need to do. My lover is gone. I no longer reside in Heaven, but in Hell. I don't know what to do.
I'm in Hell.
...
I'm in Hell. I can't believe this.
Elijah has long since disappeared. I don't know where he's gone or what he's doing or if he misses me or if he still loves me... I think he melded. I don't know and I wish I did.
My anger and hatred toward Demon Marton and the others who did those awful things to him when he was abducted haven't gone anywhere, haven't faded. My visions of them because of my bond with Lij haven't gone away, even though I know he's healed. Losing Elijah was just the last straw.
That is what caused me to Fall.
I don't know what the fuck to do now. I'm not what I was, nor do I know what I need to do. My lover is gone. I no longer reside in Heaven, but in Hell. I don't know what to do.
I'm in Hell.
...
I'm in Hell. I can't believe this.