This has been on my mind for some time now...
Well a lot of things have happened in my life this year. and well. i guess i can say i honestly dont regret anything. ive said in the past that i have, but i dont. cause well...if i didnt have these experiences with my friends, my happiness, my crappy days...even my crappy month(s), i would miss out on life and watch it go by without me, while i sat and wondered what could have been.
anyway...
i have come to an understanding about things..
people are nosy. they are stupid. they lie. they cheat. they backstab. they practice SCHADENFREUDE (taking pleasure in someone elses pain...for all you people unfamiliar with ave q)
and i dont approve.
i really dont
the immaturity level of the people that surround me NOT EVERYONE is unbearable
live your own life...and get out of mine
i dont thank you nor to i condone rumors, gossip, or just anything with me as the center of your social circle. what gives?!?!
in all of the things that have happened lately, i think ive become a stronger person
i dont care about who said what to who and when about who and whatever the hell else you have to tell me to try to make me hate someone you arent at good terms with. i dont care. i make my on decisions. you cant control me. end of discussion
but if you do talk crap about me behind my back, and if you say things to me but then act the opposite when im not around...i dont care...i really dont...it officially doesnt bother me...and how could i think less of you for being human? everyone is an idiot...is it really their fault?
i cant let other peole control me especially when i know with my own proof, heart, and mind that what they say is wrong. and that im not what people assume me to be through gossip.
and well if you are ready to make an assumption about me before i even know you..then thats your deal...ruin a friendship before it even starts ya know?
and i have also learned to be more honest with people...if i have a problem with you..dont expect me to tell you that you are my friend. that doesnt help anything. and same for anyone else. to be a hypocrite or lie about a friendship or say things to make another person happy, when you mean absolutely none of that in reality, only causes more problems and unresolved hidden tension... thats not healthy...nor is it the christian thing to do.
and one more thing...
i know that i cant make people change. and i shouldnt want them to. i need to work on that. i can honestly say i care for the happiness of my friends and if that happiness doesnt involve me, i should be happy for my friend anyway, regardless, cause well...thats what friends are for. and as hard as it is. i think i have finally come to terms with realizeing that not everything in my life is gonna turn out how i want it. in fact it may be the exact opposite, but i shouldnt harp on it. i should move on and i should wait and see how things turn out...
dont live in the past...a wise person told me that
well i have managed to keep this to a pretty calm rant id say..so ill end on a happy note...
friendship can be found in the darkest of places...the places youve been to before that you thought youd never return to ever again. theres light at the end of the tunnel...nothin is holding you back
hmm i kinda like those two lines...they just kinda came to me...
so thank you everyone for making me who i am today...a much more aware, understanding, and forgiving person.
<3 Shannon
anyway...
i have come to an understanding about things..
people are nosy. they are stupid. they lie. they cheat. they backstab. they practice SCHADENFREUDE (taking pleasure in someone elses pain...for all you people unfamiliar with ave q)
and i dont approve.
i really dont
the immaturity level of the people that surround me NOT EVERYONE is unbearable
live your own life...and get out of mine
i dont thank you nor to i condone rumors, gossip, or just anything with me as the center of your social circle. what gives?!?!
in all of the things that have happened lately, i think ive become a stronger person
i dont care about who said what to who and when about who and whatever the hell else you have to tell me to try to make me hate someone you arent at good terms with. i dont care. i make my on decisions. you cant control me. end of discussion
but if you do talk crap about me behind my back, and if you say things to me but then act the opposite when im not around...i dont care...i really dont...it officially doesnt bother me...and how could i think less of you for being human? everyone is an idiot...is it really their fault?
i cant let other peole control me especially when i know with my own proof, heart, and mind that what they say is wrong. and that im not what people assume me to be through gossip.
and well if you are ready to make an assumption about me before i even know you..then thats your deal...ruin a friendship before it even starts ya know?
and i have also learned to be more honest with people...if i have a problem with you..dont expect me to tell you that you are my friend. that doesnt help anything. and same for anyone else. to be a hypocrite or lie about a friendship or say things to make another person happy, when you mean absolutely none of that in reality, only causes more problems and unresolved hidden tension... thats not healthy...nor is it the christian thing to do.
and one more thing...
i know that i cant make people change. and i shouldnt want them to. i need to work on that. i can honestly say i care for the happiness of my friends and if that happiness doesnt involve me, i should be happy for my friend anyway, regardless, cause well...thats what friends are for. and as hard as it is. i think i have finally come to terms with realizeing that not everything in my life is gonna turn out how i want it. in fact it may be the exact opposite, but i shouldnt harp on it. i should move on and i should wait and see how things turn out...
dont live in the past...a wise person told me that
well i have managed to keep this to a pretty calm rant id say..so ill end on a happy note...
friendship can be found in the darkest of places...the places youve been to before that you thought youd never return to ever again. theres light at the end of the tunnel...nothin is holding you back
hmm i kinda like those two lines...they just kinda came to me...
so thank you everyone for making me who i am today...a much more aware, understanding, and forgiving person.
<3 Shannon