go mission trip ::pukes::
yay for updating.... and yay (actualy, no) for a week long mission trip in upstate NY with a bunch o born-agains who tried to make us convert the indians in a reservation to christianity... oh, so much fun... well, i'm beging to think again about being with kevin.... yay for guy probs.... i spent way too much time with him, seeing him almost 24/7 on a mission trip, it kinda gets annoying when he acts like such a jerk with no respect for other religons or even myself (he is sooo embarassing) .... oh, and aparently im an outcast in his family (but he wont admit it or even tell me the truth) and he is such a momma's boy.. jeeze, hes 18 and his mom is still volontering him for work and makes him do stuff last minute, wasting all his free time qhen hes working, and when he's, what, almost 18??? wow, i mean come on.... someone can't stick up for them self... and wow, he's going to NYC for the fireworks, tells me last minute of course cause we were suppose to hang out, but he also says, they made me go, oh, im sry.... my brother kinda forced me. i mean, i would love to go to the city for the fireworks and i would not give some excuse saying they're forcing me to go... jeeze, just tell me the fucking truth and say sry for breaking plans.. not sound like he's not gunna enjoy it.. please, he does this all the time... and he always has to ask his mom if i can go, half the time i can't (or they just wont let me while kevin gives me a poor excuse) and it seems like i'm never welcome... jeeze, im seriously thinking bout leaving him... plus, hes going to college....... so i chould just end it now and not buy him an expensive b-day present when the only gifts he has ever given me were cheep ass stuff from A&P..... just dunno now if i want him to come along to Quebec now.. dont wanna spend a week with a previous cheater, some horny basterd and a liar..... ::sigh::... and i miss the fun flirty summers....
~~::angry & upset::~~
~~::angry & upset::~~