[Real Life] Adjustment Period
My new status isn't sinking in yet. I wonder why. I've officially quit my job yesterday so I can concentrate on recovering my previously spectacular vocal quality. It's a series of unfortunate events, really, so it's quite easy to deduce the reason for my denial. I guess I've been so used to juggling my schedule as a working student that the removal of one of the key elements of my schedule left a rather large gap in my daily diary. I feel a little lost to be honest.
I know that I wanted to quit my job for a long time but I didn't know how I would feel about it. I'm like a guy, I suppose. I base my personal value on my work. Take it away and you break me. Don't get me wrong, please. I wanted to be free but I loved my previous job as a call center agent. It's an entertaining profession. It's great while it lasted. I cannot see myself lasting in that kind of industry because I cannot stand it. It's going to kill my soul even though it's fattening my wallet. Yes, I'm a little contradictory. I'm trying to find out how I'm going to deal with my restless energy. I'll probably feel a little depressed until I get used to it.
The great thing about my unemployment is that I have all the time in the world! I can read, write, sleep and tend to my family relationships. I can get back into shape, recover my flawless face and sharpen my mind. I can focus on my studies and actually graduate in October. I can go into thrift shops without wondering whether or not I have an appointment. On top of all of these goodies, I can actually rest my vocal chords! Sounds good to me.
In an ideal world, I wouldn't mind unemployment. I can survive because my family can still take care of me. Unfortunately, it's not an ideal world. I still need money and I need it fast. It breaks my heart to know that I cannot provide my sister's allowance anymore and I will strain our monthly budget further. The only hope that I have is that I will graduate and I will jump into the next job that comes along to help my family more. Now I'm looking for freelance jobs online to have some income. (Let's face it. I'm a pragmatist and a practical one too. I need to have some sort of gig to support myself. Blame Jo from The Little Women. She taught me how to be independent and free-thinking.) I need some shopping money too.
As for activities, I still have school, Up-Up Batangas and my writing. I still have lots of time to exercise and to diet! I don't have to sleep in the wee hours of the morning! I can tend to my younger brother. I'll be very busy. I'll probably update everyday to stave off my ennui. It will be an interesting two months, I'm sure.
“Pitiful is the person who is afraid of taking risks. Perhaps this person will never be disappointed or disillusioned; perhaps she won't suffer the way people do when they have a dream to follow. But when the person looks back-she will hear her heart” -Paulo Coelho