I like the way it hurt cuz I love you
Title: I like the way it hurt cuz I love you ( 1 \ 2 )
Author: angel_khul
Rating: NC-17
Pairing: JongKey
Summary: Jonghyun a colloge student a bad guy always messing with the teachers and the princeble, but what happenes when he fell in love with a guy named Kim Kibum. will there love last for ever, what will happen in the prosess...
A/N: I apologize for all the error and....uhm...everything that will make you unhappy in the story. thanks, for reading and commenting...^.^
Key once again screamed in pain. This was too much for him he can’t take it anymore being abused every time like that, it was horrible. After he woke up his vision was blurry, he stood up slowly enduring the pain. He looked around him slowly his vision coming back, sitting and hugging his leg while sobbing hard. He looked at his abused body full of wounds and marks he sighed remembering what happened.
______________________ Flash Back _______________________
I came in the house singing ‘Jonghyun will be coming home soon, hehehe I will make for him his favorite’. Without any warning I was shoved to hit the wall and be pinned to it by strong hands It hurt me lot. I looked up to find HIM none other than my boyfriend Jonghyun. I was shocked at the sudden move “who the hell was that guy KIBUM HUH….. Answer me”. I was taken aback “w-what are you talking about Jonghyun?”. Jonghyun got madder tightening his grip on my wrist and I winced in pain.
“You’re fucking kidding me right”
“J-Jonghyun what are you talking about and pleas let go of my hand it hurts”
“You’re playing dumb aren’t you *scoffing* hurts you don’t even know what pain is Kibum”
“J-Jonghyun p-pleas s-stop” while my tears started falling, I know where this will end and I’m scared.
“Hmp….. Come on” he started pulling me to our bedroom. I was begging him to let go and stop this he have to calm down. But he ignored all my cry’s and kept going. I’m scared I don’t even have the strength to pull my hand from his grip. We entered the room and he threw me to the bed taking out his belt. I got up wanting to get out I didn’t want to die he looked enough angry to kill me. But I couldn’t reach the door cuz he caught my wrist and pulled me to his chest “where do you think you’re going huh…. Ah back to your fucking boyfriend HUH…. I will teach you a lesson that you won’t forget at all”. He threw me to the bed again but this time he tied my wrist to the bed. It was so tight I couldn’t move my hand and it hurt like hell. Jonghyun started to take out his clothes and mine as well. He looked at my necked body for a bit before he smirks “you will know now that you shouldn’t have cheated on me Kibum”. I was shocked “J-Jonghyun when did I do that I love you-” I wasn’t able to continue my words as his lips crashed on mine. It wasn’t like the kisses we used to have, innocent nor the once that a lover would kiss you it was different. He wasn’t the Jonghyun I knew 2 years ago the sweet and gentle who cared about me more then my own mother, he changed a lot. Jonghyun broke the kiss as he looked at my crying face. My lips hurt a lot and I can taste the mental in my mouth. Jonghyun changed so much “you love me huh how sweet, then why THE FUCK WERE YOU WITH ANOTHER GUY HOLDING HIS HANDS AND KISSEING HIS FORHED HUH…. EVERY WEEK A NEW HORRE HUH? I CAN’T SATISFY YOU ANYMORE HUH TELL ME…. WELL THEN YOU DON’T HAVE TO SEARCH ANYMORE I WILL FUCK YOU UNTIL YOU WONT BE ABLE TO MOVE FOR DAYS”. I was about to say something when he kissed me again. His tongue wanted to enter my mouth but I didn’t give it to him. He got mad and started rooming my body touching my sensitive places, I gasped he took it as a chance and slipped his tongue in exploring my mouth. He moved down to my neck, collarbone my chest until he reached my nipples. He started sucking them and biting them hard I groaned in pain. He bit every part of my body living marks. He reached my lower body, I didn’t dare to moan I didn’t want to make him excited it would have been a bad idea. But my body didn’t care and reacted to everything he did mine and his were hard. He put his in my hole without a warning. I screamed in pain but he didn’t stop stroking in and out of me hard and fast. I felt something wet and hot slipping from my hole but he still didn’t stop. I was scared ‘is this going to be my end…. I guess dying in my lovers hand is much bitter…. Right? After how many strokes everything went black ‘I fainted….?’
I snap
Who's that dude
I don't even know his name
I laid hands on him
I'll never stoop so low again
I guess I don't know my own strength
____________________ End Of Flash Back ____________________
Key was in the shower after struggling a lot he was able to reach the bathroom. He sighed deeply letting his tears fall once again. “Why…. Why did you changed so much like that…. What exactly happened?” His knee couldn’t hold him anymore, he fall to the tube letting the water wash his pain and this sad memory. After taking 1 hour in the bathroom Key got out of the bathroom wearing his clothes not finding Jonghyun anywhere. He sighed and went out the house he had class to attend to.
~ First Time They Met ~
I and Jonghyun are in college, it was there where they met. It was the first year for Key he was happy to inter this prestigious college. The ceremony for the new comers was boring as Key said it. He looked for his class and went to it. The upper class mates had to go to the fresh men to tell them what the activates and everything about the school.
“Why do we have to go? It’s so damn annoying this is all your fault Jonghyun” Joon glared at the blond boy.
“What!!! It’s not like I want to go do this stupid now do I?” Jonghyun said sighing hard.
“Well it is your fault, if you didn’t tease the principle and drag us with you we won’t be in this mess now would we?” Soohyun said looking at the shorter boy.
“Fine fine it’s my fault *smiling* but don’t say that you guys didn’t enjoy the prank…. It was fucking hilarious…. I couldn’t hold myself from bursting in laughter when I saw his face oh my god” and laughing hard.
Joon and Mir were laughing with him G.O was shaking his head while Soohyun was smiling only. The guys reached the class their suppose to talk to. Jonghyun and his group went in after knocking on the door. The teacher sighed seeing them was not a good sign at all he learned that through the years. He stopped the lesson and turned completely to them “what do you want?” asking so rudely. Jonghyun and the guys smiled wide they loved to teas this teacher he was easily being teased. Jonghyun went to him “teach, the prin said to talk to the class about the school”. The teacher raised his eyebrow “so what did you do this time Jonghyun?”. Smiled widely and scratched the back of his head “nothing much just take his car and put it on the roof…. How don’t ask” he said looking at his friends. The teacher shook his head “just say what you came saying here and leave fast” after saying that he sit down on the chair looking at Jonghyun and the group. Jonghyun lets Soohyun talk to the class; Soohyun started talking about the school and the activities the teams the awards they won etc. Jonghyun got bored he stretched his hands and yawned. The door opened and when Jonghyun turned to the door he choked on his own yawn. He never saw someone as beautiful as this person who came in now or should he say a beautiful boy.
You ever love somebody so much
You can barely breathe
When you're with them
You meet
And neither one of you
Even know what hit 'em
Got that warm fuzzy feeling
Yeah them chills
The boy looked at them confused then back at his paper which Jonghyun assumed is his schedule. The teacher made a noise to catch the boy’s attention. He looked pass the guys to see the teacher and went to him with a relive. Jonghyun couldn’t stop stare at the boy he looked sexy too. He looked up and down like a lion looking at his pray “dud you’re drooling” Joon said and Mir nodded. Jonghyun snapped looking at them and hit them on the head “shut up, I’m not drooling” and back staring at the boy the teacher talking to.
“Why were you late….. (Looking in his paper) Kim Kibum…”
“I’m sorry sir I got lost and…… I’m sorry” Kibum said looking down.
The teacher smiled ‘his a good student then’ “okay cuz it’s your first day I will forgive you, but don’t make it a habit okay”
The boy smiled wide and nodded which made Jonghyun weak on his knees. He never saw a beautiful smile like his. Its official he belongs to Jonghyun, he smirked ‘You don’t know what is waiting for you Kim Kibum’ he thought. The guys beside him felt chills running through their body and knew Jonghyun was up to something. The boy went to his seat not noticing the way Jonghyun was staring at him. The day finished Jonghyun didn’t catch a glance at his angel, he sighed walking home with his friends.
“Jonghyun why the long face?” Soohyun said looking at his friend worriedly.
“He wasn’t able to see his angel that’s why hehehehehe” Joon said laughing.
“Angel!!!! What angel?” G.O asked from his book.
“You know that guy who came in late what’s his name again….. Yeah Kim Kibum” Mir said smiling widely like he made something happen.
Jonghyun groaned “I didn’t even see him just a glance… No he had to disappear suddenly doesn’t he”
“Maybe you’re not looking in the right places Jonghyun” G.O said looking in front of him and stopping.
“Huh what do you mean?” Jonghyun asked looking back at him.
G.O shook his head in front letting them look at where he was directing. Jonghyun eyes widened there were guys surrounding the boy and he didn’t look well, he looked dizzy “no fucking way…”
“Hey why have you been running from us we won’t hurt you (holding Key’s chin up and coming closer to his face) we just want to play a bit how about it?”
Key slapped his hand away and went back before his lips touch the guy’s. The guy got mad and pushed Key to the wall pinning him to it. Key groaned in pain his back hurt a lot but he didn’t stop struggling to be set free even though he had no strength. The guy came closer to Key lust in his eyes wanting to kiss him. Jonghyun got mad and hit the guy and he fall to the ground hurt his friends looked up to see who it was “J-Jonghyun….” And flee not caring about their friend. Before Jonghyun could do anything else to the guy he got up and run after them. Jonghyun hissed in anger but soon his anger melted when he heard the boy screaming at his friend who is trying to help him up.
“It’s okay G.O I will take care of him” Jonghyun said pushing his friend gently.
G.O shook his head and went out of the boy’s way. Jonghyun came closer to the boy “hey… are you okay?” he asked knelling at the boys level. The boy looked up with teary eyes hesitated, Key didn’t know if he should trust this stranger but something in his heart told him to. Key shook his head ‘no’ weakly not able to speak too much. Jonghyun smiled he talked to his angel “okay amm my name is Kim Jonghyun your upper classmen, those are my friends…… Kibum can I call you Kibum (Key shook his head ‘yes’) *smiling more* Kibum I’m going to carry you to my dorm okay so that I can take care of you and take out the drug they put in you okay” he said receiving an agreement from the boy “I’m going to touch you now okay so that I can carry you”. He didn’t see any resisting so he carried Kibum to his arms. Key hold to Jonghyun’s neck hard why did he trust him that much he didn’t know but it felt nice. Jonghyun turned to his friends singling for them to take their things and follow him. They reached Jonghyun’s room, he went in his room and put Kibum on it he was sound sleeping. Jonghyun smiled at his angelic face, he turned to his friends “Joon take Mir with you and go buy medicine, G.O go bring some food for him or make it for us, now go” after seeing them go he took his jacket out “come on help me take him to the shower his temperature is high” Soohyun nodded and went to Kibum and helped him to the bathroom. They took everything off but his boxers. Jonghyun went in the shower and signed to Soohyun to bring the boy. Soohyun opened the shower letting the cold water touch his friend and the boy. Key felt the cold water touching his body and he jumped but Jonghyun hugged him hard and calmed him down not caring that Key’s nails are making scratch on his back. After a while the boy got used to the cold water and calmed down melting in the hug. Jonghyun smiled feeling the boy in his arms felt…. Nice.
“How adorable” Soohyun said looking at Jonghyun with a smirk.
Jonghyun stopped smiling turning to Soohyun “what?!” putting his innocent puppy-eyes.
“Oh nothing I will go ready for him some dry clothes and for you too” and chuckled after going out the door.
Jonghyun pouted “his so annoying” he looked down at the sleeping boy in his arms, he looked comfortable didn’t he.
Soohyun came in the bathroom and helped Jonghyun getting Kibum to his clothes and to bed. Although they had trouble to whom will change his clothes, Soohyun thought about it and it will be best for the boy if he did it who knows what Jonghyun will do to him. They sat in the living room waiting for the guys to come. Mir and Joon came with G.O, they sit down eating “so how is he?” G.O asked while eating. Jonghyun looked up from his food “his doing fine” he just nodded to reply to him. The guy went out to go sleep they do have school tomorrow. After they went out Jonghyun looked at his empty apartment and sighed going to his room. He looked at his angels face and smiled wide ‘when will you wake up I want to hear your voice’. Jonghyun sighed again seeing that he won’t weak up soon, he went to the chair near the bed and sit on it without realizing it he was fast asleep.
~~~~~
Key woke up feeling his head really heavy, he felt cozy not wanting to get up he rolled to the other side. He opened his eyes slowly flattering it open he saw a figure sitting on the chair. He snapped awake but feeling dizzy and fell to the bed again making a loud groan. Jonghyun snapped awake looking around and asking what’s wrong he sighed seeing that his angel is awake and his the one made the noise.
“Are you okay? How do you feel?” Jonghyun said looking at the younger boy in concern.
“Ah~…. Where am I and who the hell are you? (Looking down) AND WHERE THE HELL MY CLOTHES” losing his calm.
Jonghyun went to him and hugged him; he didn’t know why he did that now the boy will think his a pervert “would you calm down your still not well completely”.
Key was surprised with the hug but he did feel calm when he hugged him, he doesn’t know why but he feels calm and safe “o-okay….. Now can you tell me what happened?”.
Jonghyun smiled and broke the hug and started telling him what happened. Key couldn’t help but feel disappointed that he had to break the hug he missed the heat and the feeling being safe. They were sitting in the living room eating breakfast “Oh….. Well umm thanks I really appreciate your help I umm…. T-Thanks a lot again”. Jonghyun shook his head and smiled looking at him “you welcome Kibum”. Key smiled back “you can call me Key”. Jonghyun smiled wider with a grin “Key huh nice…. Key to my heart then”. Key felt his heart skip a beat and blush ‘how blunt can he be’.
From that day Jonghyun will always come to Key and bug him so that he will agree to go out with him on a date but Key will always turn him down, not sure about his feeling yet. After so many times Key finally said yes to him and he was really happy. They went on more than one date while doing so Key fall in love with Jonghyun more and more every day. They became too close that you can’t see the one without the other, they even moved in together in a small house near the college. It all went well until Key came from Daegu where he spent his summer with his grandmother. Key felt that Jonghyun changed a lot he will be jealous all the time from everyone even Key’s friend that he knew from high school who transfer to their college. Until that day came when Jonghyun came to the house drunk he rapped Key until he feinted. Key was injured badly, his body was full of wounds and marks he was in the house when Onew (His friend from high school) called to check on him, he had a bad feeling and he was right. Key tried to not show his pain in the phone but being Onew he was able to feel the fakeness and went to Key’s house he was shocked when he saw Key tears started falling seeing his friend in that state. He carried Key out the house and in to his car he took him to his house took care of his wounds. Onew was about to call the police on Jonghyun but Key stopped him not wanting his lover being in trouble. Onew wanted to protest but Key started crying and begging him not to. Onew sighed in defeat and sat next Key tells he was well enough to move. Jonghyun was calling everyone to know where is his lover who just disappeared. Jonghyun sat down regretting everything happened he was just too drunk to realize what was he doing and started crying hard. He looked up when he heard the door to his house opens. His eyes widened “Key!!!! Where have you been I’ve been searching for you all over the places” and wanted to hug him but Key backed away. Jonghyun was hurt as to why did he do that “Key….”. Key backed up more Jonghyun saw fear in the younger boy’s eyes. He came closer but someone came and stood in front of Jonghyun. The guy turned his head to him “Key… go get your things now” Key looked at him and nodded slitily and went pass Jonghyun. When Jonghyun wanted to go after Key the guy didn’t let him “don’t even think about it Jonghyun, you hurt him enough”. Jonghyun turned to him his head fall to the ground when he saw the look the guy was giving him “I didn’t mean to-to do that” and tears started to fall on his cheeks. The guy got mad and pinned Jonghyun to the wall “what the fuck do you mean you didn’t mean to do that to him. Didn’t you see the wounds on his body how could you do that to him HUH?!!” and was about to punch him when his hand (That was about to hit Jonghyun) was hugged tightly “n-no Onew hyung don’t please don’t hit him. Please I can’t bear it. I can’t bear seeing him getting hurt” Key said between tears. Jonghyun looked at him with wide eyes “Key….. Baby-“ before he could say anything Onew pulled Key with him out “let’s go Key”. Key looked at Jonghyun one last glance while the tears were falling it hurts him seeing Jonghyun hurt like that he loved Jonghyun a lot he didn’t want to leave him but how could him now. He didn’t know what to do anymore he just let Onew pull him out the house with what strength left in him.
Next time you'll show restraint
You don't get another chance
Life is no Nintendo game
Now you get to watch her leave
Out the window
Guess that's why they call it window pane
Jonghyun stood in front the window looking at his heart leaving him “Key please don’t leave me….. I love you…. Please come back”.