Of course...
I'm the angry one who can't get over it. It's all me. Of course it is. It couldn't possibly be their fault..or her's. It's my anger and bitterness that's made this mess. It's my fault that things are beyond strained. Cause I wasn't the one who tried to stay friends. I wasn't the one who gave her more chances than she deserved. I'm not the one who's actually HAPPY and ended up with the best out of this whole mess. Saddest thing is I'm not even angered by this. It just figures. I'm actually laughing about it! Both of their abilities to redirect fault and blame off themselves would never cease to amaze me if I wasn't so incredibly jaded by it anymore. It's gone past sad to just being funny. There's really nothing to do but laugh anymore, cause in the end: I'm happy, Zack's happy, and I know it's not my fault. And even if it doesn't work out with Zack and me (which I doubt) both of us will still have been in the right, wherever they want to lay the blame.
Aside from finding out things that would make me growl in annoyance if I wasn't so busy laughing, things are okay. Rather bored with work, wanting to continue with training or be done instead of this limbo shit. Dog's still peeing accidentally occassionally but seems okay, vet asked for a urine sample (good luck to my mom getting that.) It's becoming a bit of a trick trying to find time to get my car a tune up, but she's running okay anyway. Extremely happy for Krista and her new car, hopefully it will help her move here sooner. Can't go to Little Rock for New Years but I'm strangely okay with that. = P Get to have an extra long modern Garou troupe game on the 30th. YAY! Still can't kill that damned sea witch Ursula in Kingdom Hearts. Basically things are okay. Can't wait for January. Need more time before Christmas. So yeah, bit dull but pretty good. Hopefully, my drive for my larp games will come back soon. Back to wasting time.