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How is it that I've been the one who has been hurt, back stabbed,ignored, unwanted, unloved and lied to for almost a year now but I'm the bad guy, I'm in the wrong.
your pissed off somewhere because I'm so horrible but I'm here crying in my car as usual wishing everything was clearer and better but I managed to piss you off.
that just makes me furious and all I can say is the guilty have no right to be upset! The in trustworthy has no right to expect trust nor does he deserve it, he has to earn it. But whatever I'm wrong and crazy!
Maybe my life will be better if I finally accept you are no good for me and cut you out off my life. What would you care anyway? You clearly don't need my shit in your life.
why is it I have nothing to live for? No dreams, no goals, broken family, broken relationship, no real friends, no one or nothing to live for or to love and feel loved back.
September 17th, September 27th, October 27, December 3rd. You probably don't even know what those dates mean, but they are such vivid memories that I struggle everyday wondering how can I make it through those days without remembering all the pain last year? I have random break downs just thinking about those days.
how many times since we started talking have I mentioned I'm sad about something and I want to talk later? Because I don't want to talk via text for once! But not once have you ever followed up on how I feel... It's like you don't care...
I have no energy because I'm still depressed and I can't shake it. I don't think it will ever go away...
your pissed off somewhere because I'm so horrible but I'm here crying in my car as usual wishing everything was clearer and better but I managed to piss you off.
that just makes me furious and all I can say is the guilty have no right to be upset! The in trustworthy has no right to expect trust nor does he deserve it, he has to earn it. But whatever I'm wrong and crazy!
Maybe my life will be better if I finally accept you are no good for me and cut you out off my life. What would you care anyway? You clearly don't need my shit in your life.
why is it I have nothing to live for? No dreams, no goals, broken family, broken relationship, no real friends, no one or nothing to live for or to love and feel loved back.
September 17th, September 27th, October 27, December 3rd. You probably don't even know what those dates mean, but they are such vivid memories that I struggle everyday wondering how can I make it through those days without remembering all the pain last year? I have random break downs just thinking about those days.
how many times since we started talking have I mentioned I'm sad about something and I want to talk later? Because I don't want to talk via text for once! But not once have you ever followed up on how I feel... It's like you don't care...
I have no energy because I'm still depressed and I can't shake it. I don't think it will ever go away...