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...I'm still plauged by thoughts that I wish I never had...
Why did you treat me so low? Why did all this happen?
I am nervous about this trip... it could be great and you could just hold it against us just like you did last time...
What if I find out something horrible? What if you are still hiding things? Can I trust you ever again? Why am I wasting my time with someone I can't trust?
I wish I wasn't enduring this...
Why can't I either decide yes I want you, or no I don't.
Why did you treat me so low? Why did all this happen?
I am nervous about this trip... it could be great and you could just hold it against us just like you did last time...
What if I find out something horrible? What if you are still hiding things? Can I trust you ever again? Why am I wasting my time with someone I can't trust?
I wish I wasn't enduring this...
Why can't I either decide yes I want you, or no I don't.