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i dont think that i have been this fucking frustrated for a long time.
six hours of fucking fencing, two bad knees, six blisters later
and all i want to do is kill some of my teammates, shoot myself in the head
and set the whole fucking world on fire.
im just so tired of it all.
i mean, fuck the fact that i know we only have this last fucking bout to go
but dear god, you could at least try to do SOMETHING else other than a
fucking remise.. or a counterattack or any other disgusting slimy
squiggle out of the way move that you so love doing.
god, fuck that.
naturally i have to be a fucking fuck up to and miss two beautiful
parry repostes because apparently i cant hit on fucking target..
god it makes me want to beat my hands against a wall until i bleed.
but then nikki would kill me and that might be more painfull.
how is it that against jenna i can pull nice second intentions
which i suck at, hit her smack in her flank, which is fucking hard to do
since temple girls have the most closed six line EVER..
but then i get to fencing sabrina and my mind is like
fuck you stupid european now i am not going to do what you want me to do
but instead i will fuck with you and make you want to kill yourself.
great just fucking great.
there is nothign to eat in this room
and its raining outside
i have laundry to wash
and a room to clean
and then tomorrow i am on a plane to houston
where once again i will be fencing
saturday and monday
and then we come back late fucking monday night
and then tuesday is the first day of classes
and i still feel like killing every single living being
that currently is breathing air on teh surface of this world.
fuck it all.
fuck.
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and yes i am going out for a fucking stoke because i hate life.
six hours of fucking fencing, two bad knees, six blisters later
and all i want to do is kill some of my teammates, shoot myself in the head
and set the whole fucking world on fire.
im just so tired of it all.
i mean, fuck the fact that i know we only have this last fucking bout to go
but dear god, you could at least try to do SOMETHING else other than a
fucking remise.. or a counterattack or any other disgusting slimy
squiggle out of the way move that you so love doing.
god, fuck that.
naturally i have to be a fucking fuck up to and miss two beautiful
parry repostes because apparently i cant hit on fucking target..
god it makes me want to beat my hands against a wall until i bleed.
but then nikki would kill me and that might be more painfull.
how is it that against jenna i can pull nice second intentions
which i suck at, hit her smack in her flank, which is fucking hard to do
since temple girls have the most closed six line EVER..
but then i get to fencing sabrina and my mind is like
fuck you stupid european now i am not going to do what you want me to do
but instead i will fuck with you and make you want to kill yourself.
great just fucking great.
there is nothign to eat in this room
and its raining outside
i have laundry to wash
and a room to clean
and then tomorrow i am on a plane to houston
where once again i will be fencing
saturday and monday
and then we come back late fucking monday night
and then tuesday is the first day of classes
and i still feel like killing every single living being
that currently is breathing air on teh surface of this world.
fuck it all.
fuck.
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and yes i am going out for a fucking stoke because i hate life.