Mar 13, 2006 01:06
SO TONIGHT WAS ABOUT THE BEST NIGHT IN A LONG LONG TIME. I CALLED UP AN OLD FRIEND AND SO MANY THINGS HAVE CLICKED INTO PLACE - GOD IS SOOOOOOOOOO AWESOME AND SOOOOOOOOOO MUCH BIGGER. I MEAN JUST THIS WEEK I HAVE THOUGHT SO MUCH ABOUT WHERE I AM AND WHAT I AM DOING. I HAVE DOUBTED THIS VERY DAY WHERE I AM, WHY I AM, DID I HEAR GOD WRONG BEFORE, WHAT AM I DOING. i JUST TALKED TO MY GOOD BUDDY RANDELL THURSDAY AND HAVE BEEN THINKING SINCE THEN MAYBE I AM EXPECTING THE WRONG THING OUT OF LIFE AND I SHOULDN'T HAVE SO MUCH THAT I THINK HOW THINGS WILL BE. BUT IT'S NOT GONNA BE THAT WAY AT ALL!!!!!!!!!!!!!
TONIGHT I CALLED A FRIEND AND TALKED TO HIM FOR A LONG TIME. HE IS SO ON FIRE FOR GOD IT IS JUST AWESOME. AND I TOLD HIM A COUPLE OF TIMES I WAS TALKING TO HIM, BUT IT WAS JUST LIKE HE WASN'T TALKING AT ALL, BUT GOD WAS. I TOLD ROOMATE ASHLEY THAT IT WAS LIKE I DIALED 1-800-DIAL-GOD. AND HE SAID THAT I DIDN'T CALL HIM BACK ACCIDENT IT WAS A DIVINE APPOINTMENT - AND IT SO WAS. I UNDERSTAND THIS PAST WEEK SO MUCH BETTER NOW. sOMETHING I THOUGHT WAS DRIVING ME CRAZY AND I COULDN'T QUIT THINKING ABOUT WAS ACTUALLY THE HOLY SPIRIT!!!!!!!!!! I MEAN IT WAS LIKE HE NEW WHAT I WAS GOING THROUGH AND WAS SAYING JUST THE THINGS I NEEDED TO HEAR.
THIS, THIS IS GONNA BE A GREAT WEEK. Tuesday night i am going to something new and i am really nervous - but Ashley M. is going to go with me - she is such a GREAT friend - and she is really excited too.
And i have had an old issue hanging over my head for so long and it seems i might get a chance to fix it. oh, the dreams that i have had, old dreams, awww.
So this isn't about the issue actually - not the one i thought it was - but my lack. And God has just reached to me through my friend and i am so excited.
So for my icon - that i think i ripped off from ang - i wanted one that was so appropriate to tonight. And i chose "you know a dream is like a river, ever changing as it flows" its so true, all these dreams and disappointments, they are changing, but it is so like a river, my dreams are changing, its cause they are flowing, not going away completely.
I mean i cannot tell you how PUMPED i am. Life is cool.
Life is precious, life is sweet
like the earth beneathe my feet.
(and the air i am floating on)
tuesday nights,
god,
fix it