"just as he hit the ground, they lowered a tow that stuck in his neck to the gills"
my father calls me
my brother calls me
my sister-in-law calls me
my closest friends in the world; andy, michael
and through andy; bret, jared, nick, rob, steph
and through michael; shannon, alex, the little girls
and then my mother
my identical twin, she reflects me so much
i hate her so at times, but i'll die from the love i feel for her
a girl i have never met but have fallen in love with
a girl i saved from herself
and countless others, i have made a difference
i was a dead man; and while i had help, ultimately it's amazing i'm not
a job; my father is living in a homeless shelter right now, some people have no jobs
my apartment
dru and i just got done spending an evening home together; making dinner, playing halo 2 head to head, watching the way of the gun. he fell asleep and snores. i cover him up, careful not to tickle his bare feet, and leave the bathroom light on for him as i know he has an issue with utter darkness.
larry is out with a girl
i have a band
i have my music
i have my guitar
i have a bed
you know the only thing i think i want is my teddy bear. he's falling apart and my mother has him. i named him bill when i was five or six. my father used to make him animate. bill would tuck me in. the smell of winstons and developer from the printshop still clinging to his clothes. he wouldn't speak.
my mother used to sing me to sleep. my favorite was always mocking bird. "hush little baby, don't say a word..."
i'll always miss my youth, but at least i had my youth. at least i get to look back at it and feel tears of joy.
i love...
i want to do
i want to go back to never saying i will
i want to just do
and then i'll say i did
there are many things i want to do
but i wont say i'll do them
not anymore
i want to see the tree for it's leaves and branches and bark and roots and beehives and bird nests
i want to savor a plant for the fruit and not the flower
i want to breath every breath as if it were my last
savor this breath
i'm not promised another
thank you to everyone i know
i owe this life to you
and this breath is dedicated to you
my brother calls me
my sister-in-law calls me
my closest friends in the world; andy, michael
and through andy; bret, jared, nick, rob, steph
and through michael; shannon, alex, the little girls
and then my mother
my identical twin, she reflects me so much
i hate her so at times, but i'll die from the love i feel for her
a girl i have never met but have fallen in love with
a girl i saved from herself
and countless others, i have made a difference
i was a dead man; and while i had help, ultimately it's amazing i'm not
a job; my father is living in a homeless shelter right now, some people have no jobs
my apartment
dru and i just got done spending an evening home together; making dinner, playing halo 2 head to head, watching the way of the gun. he fell asleep and snores. i cover him up, careful not to tickle his bare feet, and leave the bathroom light on for him as i know he has an issue with utter darkness.
larry is out with a girl
i have a band
i have my music
i have my guitar
i have a bed
you know the only thing i think i want is my teddy bear. he's falling apart and my mother has him. i named him bill when i was five or six. my father used to make him animate. bill would tuck me in. the smell of winstons and developer from the printshop still clinging to his clothes. he wouldn't speak.
my mother used to sing me to sleep. my favorite was always mocking bird. "hush little baby, don't say a word..."
i'll always miss my youth, but at least i had my youth. at least i get to look back at it and feel tears of joy.
i love...
i want to do
i want to go back to never saying i will
i want to just do
and then i'll say i did
there are many things i want to do
but i wont say i'll do them
not anymore
i want to see the tree for it's leaves and branches and bark and roots and beehives and bird nests
i want to savor a plant for the fruit and not the flower
i want to breath every breath as if it were my last
savor this breath
i'm not promised another
thank you to everyone i know
i owe this life to you
and this breath is dedicated to you