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Jose (best friend) and I were talking last night and I was being mushy because I'm weird like that. Anyway, he told me that I'm always mushy which I found really weird because I didn't think I was. Rather I didn't think I was always mushy. We got into talking about it because well... I didn't used to be and it's still weird for me to be mushy with people because I'm not used to it just yet. Then I kind of looked back at my life and realized how I didn't used to be that way with anyone besides my brother and boyfriend because it made me feel weaker and I hated that. I hated feeling like I was weak. Last night I realized it being mushy still makes me feel that way... like I'm weaker because of that. I don't know if it's true or not... maybe it's just the bad side of me that's having me think that stuff, but I just needed to let it out.