psychological problems..comin' right up!!
Yeah... I've almost been away for a month now due to work.. a month of not seeing him, not hearing from him... and yesterday one of my friends mentioned him to me... and i just laughed it off.. i was happy for once, because i didn't *feel* any different anymore whenever I hear his name or when it comes to him....
... I slowly opened my eyes and met the eyes that haunted me for three years now, everything was quiet, it was still dark out, and the rain was pouring down pretty hard. The rain was depressing, but looking at those eyes, I felt like I had won the jackpot in the lottery. I remember being held, I felt his warmth all over again, I've been cold for so long, it's a blessing to be near his warmth once more. Being held in his arms, I felt so secure. Feeling his lips on mine, I smiled, this... this was happiness... closing my eyes, still feeling his lips on mine, all i could think about was that I had found my happiness at last....
only for me to jolt awake and take deep breaths as if i were having an asthma attack.. i felt dread dance upon my spine..
One of the main reasons I had agreed to take this job was so that I would get over him, and i was doing fine..
but just what does this dream, this nightmare mean? Why is it that whenever I finally find the strength to carry on with my life and live a life without him in it, he always shows up, as if fate is interrupting and does not want me to forget him? Why is life so cruel?
this is the ultimate pain of the hearts... to love someone so dearly who doesn't love you back....
..and even though you know it,,, you can't help but love him still...
... I slowly opened my eyes and met the eyes that haunted me for three years now, everything was quiet, it was still dark out, and the rain was pouring down pretty hard. The rain was depressing, but looking at those eyes, I felt like I had won the jackpot in the lottery. I remember being held, I felt his warmth all over again, I've been cold for so long, it's a blessing to be near his warmth once more. Being held in his arms, I felt so secure. Feeling his lips on mine, I smiled, this... this was happiness... closing my eyes, still feeling his lips on mine, all i could think about was that I had found my happiness at last....
only for me to jolt awake and take deep breaths as if i were having an asthma attack.. i felt dread dance upon my spine..
One of the main reasons I had agreed to take this job was so that I would get over him, and i was doing fine..
but just what does this dream, this nightmare mean? Why is it that whenever I finally find the strength to carry on with my life and live a life without him in it, he always shows up, as if fate is interrupting and does not want me to forget him? Why is life so cruel?
this is the ultimate pain of the hearts... to love someone so dearly who doesn't love you back....
..and even though you know it,,, you can't help but love him still...