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I haven't had a cig since like 8pm yesterday- mostly due to the fact that i don't have any and don't really want to kill my already half dead bank account by paying more cigs. So I've been doing fine- I've been occaupying my time by doing homework since i got home from school- which pisses me off more then anything else. But Rob just called, and I snapped at him about me not getting this job. He bitched at me for me- it just seems lately that he doesn't care about my problems and does next to nothing to comfort me when I have a problem. All he keeps saying is " what do you want me to do" I want you to fucking tell me it's gonna be alright. You don't have to fucking do anything, just tell me everything will be alright and that I'll get through it- or better yet tell me that we'll get through it together. THAT'S what i want to hear. Even if it's not the truth- that's what I want to hear. But he doesn't understand that concpet and i don't know how to explain it to him.
Joey got it. Without me having to tell him he got it.
Damn it
I've been doing nothing but homework for the last week straight. I feel like I'm doing nothing useful. I feel like all my hard work isn't getting me anywhere but deeper into depression. And nothing is helping me lately. I feel useless, and stupid, and used.....I just feel like I'm working myself to death for nothing. I can't find a job, no one wants me...more then likely I'm gonna fail school because of it i can see it....but I'm just too tired to do anything about it. I feel like shit, my arm is throbbing....i just want to relax and lay in my baby's arms but i can't even fucking do that. What is the point in working so hard if everything I do means nothing to anyone....not even me.
Joey got it. Without me having to tell him he got it.
Damn it
I've been doing nothing but homework for the last week straight. I feel like I'm doing nothing useful. I feel like all my hard work isn't getting me anywhere but deeper into depression. And nothing is helping me lately. I feel useless, and stupid, and used.....I just feel like I'm working myself to death for nothing. I can't find a job, no one wants me...more then likely I'm gonna fail school because of it i can see it....but I'm just too tired to do anything about it. I feel like shit, my arm is throbbing....i just want to relax and lay in my baby's arms but i can't even fucking do that. What is the point in working so hard if everything I do means nothing to anyone....not even me.