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Is it true that i just have a stronger will for these types of things? Then why can i see patterns in every ay situations. Friends ask me why i chose art....when they picture me as a math person....because i can see it in my head.....but cant do it in life.
I've been confronted with certain problems that i cant put off for too long. Because as soon as i let it go too far, WW3 is gonna explode in my living room. So how is it, that i can see problems coming, but cant stop them? I saw thyis- i KNEW this was going to happen, and yet i did nothing to prepare for it. Nothing at all....i just told myself i was imagining things. No wonder I'm crazy.
So now I'm in the middle again. Rob on one side and jordan on the other. So i either lose my friends or my boyfiend. How fucked up is that. I never go to the whole friends come first thing. I go with who i think is right- or i stay out of it completely. But i cant stay out of it. Because it requires me to deal with it. They're my friends.
So now what? I only get to see Rob like one or twice a week now. Fucking Elkton. So i just stay away from jordan while I'm with him? That's the plan i guess.....if not...or well.....bla....I hate being in the middle.
I've been confronted with certain problems that i cant put off for too long. Because as soon as i let it go too far, WW3 is gonna explode in my living room. So how is it, that i can see problems coming, but cant stop them? I saw thyis- i KNEW this was going to happen, and yet i did nothing to prepare for it. Nothing at all....i just told myself i was imagining things. No wonder I'm crazy.
So now I'm in the middle again. Rob on one side and jordan on the other. So i either lose my friends or my boyfiend. How fucked up is that. I never go to the whole friends come first thing. I go with who i think is right- or i stay out of it completely. But i cant stay out of it. Because it requires me to deal with it. They're my friends.
So now what? I only get to see Rob like one or twice a week now. Fucking Elkton. So i just stay away from jordan while I'm with him? That's the plan i guess.....if not...or well.....bla....I hate being in the middle.