I love you
I want to tell him not to go. I don't want to make him choose between me and his family. He says he doesnt wanna go back, but i know he does. I can see it when he talks about it. I don't want him to give it up because of me. I'm worried about him going back there and something happening here. He's done a good job at protecting me lately.....when i have an attack....or I'm just panicy...he's there and he wont be there if he moves back with his family. But I'm telling him to go, because i don't want to be selfish and tell him i need him to stay. He doesn't understand what I'm going through....and I've been leaning on him a lot lately. If he moves I'll only be able to see him in the weekends. Its go back to how it was with josh. I work friday and saturday, school mon-fri, which leaves sat and sun to do homework for said classes.....how am i supposed to see him? I made an exception with josh...because his day off rotated around...but i made my plans around it. Here we go again. But I'm not going to tell him what to do. He's going back and forth...saying he wants to go back to please his parents, but wanting to stay here to be with me. I'm gonna let him make is own decision....i won't tell him one way or the other and I'm gonna let him do it himself and support him either way he wants to go.