fear is the only thing that holds me back

[angel_babe04]

the fear of losing the only person you've ever loved and had ever loved you is so terrifying you hold back things that need to be said. i know someone that has an issue wit the most important person in her life. she's scared something went wrong. he's all the sudden become so... i dunno the words but its like pure disrespect constantly. not much

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I'm sorry

[anonymous]

I think this guy feels really stupid about what he did and is sorry about the way she feels. He doesnt mean to do that and she knows that he loves her and cares about he deeply. He just feels hurt and betrayed because she states her love to him and he fully believes her and trust her, but she can never give him the same treatment that he gives her. Its so hard to live a life, when everytime your on the phone with the love of your she accuses you of cheating or wanting to be with another girl.He knows that he has made mistakes in the past with past girlfriends and friends but he's sorry but he can't change the past.But he's engaged now and he doesnt get engaged just because it the"cool" thing to do, he really really is in love with his fiance and wants to spend the rest of his life with her and start a family and grow old together with his princess. It just hurts him that she doesnt nor proabably wont believe that he'll stay faithful to her. To understand what he feels, imagine that everytime your dad came home from work he accused you of lying to him and then he grounded you everyday. Well everytime he gets accused or not trusted by the one he truly love it pushes him further and further away, because he's going to end up getting hurt. he loves this girl with all of his heart and she knows this, she knows that everything he does, all the hardwork and sacrifice he does is for her but yet she still doesnt trust him or think that he loves her the same that she loves him. I mean what else could she want. She knows that his only goal in life is to make her happy and buy her the house that she loved on mtv cribs. She knows that he wants to be a sports agent and a criminal attorney and own his own firm in both of those indusries. She knows that he wants to change the world and he could never accomplish all those things if his beautiful angel wasnt there with him every step of the way, because shes the only reason he's doing all this. He's just scared that this isnt the end of it, that when they get older and have kids and he comes home from work they're going to have a 30- minute argument with her accusing him of infidelity or her being suspicious and he cant live his life like that, he cant marry a girl like that. All he wants is for her to stop all the stuff that she does. All the suspicion, all the accusations, all the arguing, and just love him and charish the time they get to share with each other. they dont get that much time together as it is so he wants the time that they do get together to be happy and filled with love not bullshit arguing.

Re: I'm sorry

[angel_babe04]

she knows all of this and she's gettin better but what is really gettin to her now is all the disrespect that has all the sudden started happenin. if he loves her as much as he says he does there would be none of this disrespect and commanding her what to do like shes his slave or dog

Re: I'm sorry

[anonymous]

Whatever kaylee you know i dont do that but u can think whatever u want because your selfish and you never want to care about me its always about you. You havent fixed your problem but u dont care its all about you and your happiness but what about mine i cant live like this kaylee with all the arguing and nagging and shit. you need to quit being so stubburn and selfish and change before u lose me for good.

Re: I'm sorry

[angel_babe04]

first off you promied you would never leave me second of all i didnt mean for it to sound bad im just tellin you how you make me feel somtimes. baby i love you so much and you really are my world. i couldnt see my life without you in it and ill do whatever it takes to make things better but you have to work wit me and fix your things as well cuz i cant be doin this alone baby. in order for you to keep me and not lose me you have things you need to change as well