the truth is....
the most terrifying moment is when you see the car coming at you and you begin to realize the things missing in your life you begin to doubt and you dont even know if you will live. goin back to see the car and reliving every moment. closing my eyes and remembering every moment. faking a smile for everyone so they think that i am ok. body aching head aching the fear that i could be at fault for someone else's pain or someone causing pain to my family because of the hate they might develop for me. remembering the fear. remembering it all. not knowing where to turn or what to do. and still sitting and thinking what if? what if i would have gone straight? what if i went a different way? what if i didnt even leave my house? what if? what if? what if?