life
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Current mood: sleepy
Category: Life
so it's 11 40 pm and i have school at 6 30 in the morning. i'm not going to my first class...everyone in my house with the exception of my brother has some kind of flew/virus/thing. i'm feeling the best out of everyone. my mom's got a massive head-ache, my sister's been throwing up since we picked her up from school, and i'm not really sure how my dad is feeling cause he's at work... mom took some medicine so she's sleeping so i offered to watch syd so she could rest... i'm doing laundry, watching this thing on meth mom's, and so i decided to blog about my thoughts lately. i haven't had time to do that lately.
so about my move.... first of all i am really really excited. i will finally be with my baby... after not being with him for almost 5 years. i will be there when he's sick, and when he's sad, and when he's so happy he just wants to hug somebody. i haven't been able to share any big events like that with him in forever. and we will have a place of our very own... where we decide what's right for us. and i just can't wait until the day when i can walk down that aisle and tell him in front of everyone that i'm his FOREVER.
but on the other side of that, i'm terrified, which he knows. i am scared to death to leave everything i've ever known. my family... that's the hardest thing.... my family is ridiculously close and i dont know what im going to do being away from them. and not watching my brother and sister grow up. depending on when exactly i leave, my brother will only be 12/13 years old and my sister will be 8/9.... even if i'm just out of cali till school is over, that's at least 4 years that i'll be missing. kb will be driving by the time i come back and syd will be in middle school. that's such a huge gap. but like i said i am so excited to be going to be with my love. but wow, there's so much to deal with ya know?
and i am not sure if i mentioned that i've been talking to someone at heald college about getting my associates of science and becoming a medical assistant. well, this is an awesome thing, i'd get my schooling done and all of my state and national certifications done in only 15-18 months.... took the assessment test and passed math and english so i wouldn't have to take those classes my first quarter... this would be amazing If the tuition wasn't 22 grand for the whole program. ok ok, what about fafsa... not even a speck of help... 166 dollars a quarter they can give me. that still leaves me with 3,800 dollars to pay per quarter. oh yeah i can work that out, plus car stuff (insurance, maitenance, gas, etc), plus putting away for christmas presents, plus putting away to move out in the near future?!?!
so right now i'm looking for any scholarship known to man. and i have to wait till january to apply for the cal grant. and it wont even come through til my 2nd quarter. wonderful huh? anyway, i'm looking for scholarships andgrants. we'll see how that goes.
lets see what else is happening... oh work... things are kinda wild at work right now, woody has decided that he wants us to frame and sell 30 thousand dollars worth of prints by christmas.... ha! to frame 30000 worth it would take 300 pieces, given they sell for 100 bucks a pop... that means we assemble 10 a day. framed matted everything. should be ok i guess. we'll see.
other than all that i am pretty good. i'm kinda in a hazey state lately. i feel bad because it's affecting people and i didn't want it to. nthing's wrong with me, i'mnot unahppy or anything, i'm just kinda emotionally flat-lined right now. i've been slightly saddened by a couple of people that i've been friends with forever that i've gone to hell and back with, and so i guess that's kinda set me back a little bit. things are good though. i am pretty appy with everything. i have the best friends ever, and an outstanding family and an incredible boyfriend. things are good.
thank you guys for everything i love you all.
ima do more laundry and hold my sickly sissy.
wednesday morning james, you and me and movie!
i love you kenny.... my one and only
Current mood: sleepy
Category: Life
so it's 11 40 pm and i have school at 6 30 in the morning. i'm not going to my first class...everyone in my house with the exception of my brother has some kind of flew/virus/thing. i'm feeling the best out of everyone. my mom's got a massive head-ache, my sister's been throwing up since we picked her up from school, and i'm not really sure how my dad is feeling cause he's at work... mom took some medicine so she's sleeping so i offered to watch syd so she could rest... i'm doing laundry, watching this thing on meth mom's, and so i decided to blog about my thoughts lately. i haven't had time to do that lately.
so about my move.... first of all i am really really excited. i will finally be with my baby... after not being with him for almost 5 years. i will be there when he's sick, and when he's sad, and when he's so happy he just wants to hug somebody. i haven't been able to share any big events like that with him in forever. and we will have a place of our very own... where we decide what's right for us. and i just can't wait until the day when i can walk down that aisle and tell him in front of everyone that i'm his FOREVER.
but on the other side of that, i'm terrified, which he knows. i am scared to death to leave everything i've ever known. my family... that's the hardest thing.... my family is ridiculously close and i dont know what im going to do being away from them. and not watching my brother and sister grow up. depending on when exactly i leave, my brother will only be 12/13 years old and my sister will be 8/9.... even if i'm just out of cali till school is over, that's at least 4 years that i'll be missing. kb will be driving by the time i come back and syd will be in middle school. that's such a huge gap. but like i said i am so excited to be going to be with my love. but wow, there's so much to deal with ya know?
and i am not sure if i mentioned that i've been talking to someone at heald college about getting my associates of science and becoming a medical assistant. well, this is an awesome thing, i'd get my schooling done and all of my state and national certifications done in only 15-18 months.... took the assessment test and passed math and english so i wouldn't have to take those classes my first quarter... this would be amazing If the tuition wasn't 22 grand for the whole program. ok ok, what about fafsa... not even a speck of help... 166 dollars a quarter they can give me. that still leaves me with 3,800 dollars to pay per quarter. oh yeah i can work that out, plus car stuff (insurance, maitenance, gas, etc), plus putting away for christmas presents, plus putting away to move out in the near future?!?!
so right now i'm looking for any scholarship known to man. and i have to wait till january to apply for the cal grant. and it wont even come through til my 2nd quarter. wonderful huh? anyway, i'm looking for scholarships andgrants. we'll see how that goes.
lets see what else is happening... oh work... things are kinda wild at work right now, woody has decided that he wants us to frame and sell 30 thousand dollars worth of prints by christmas.... ha! to frame 30000 worth it would take 300 pieces, given they sell for 100 bucks a pop... that means we assemble 10 a day. framed matted everything. should be ok i guess. we'll see.
other than all that i am pretty good. i'm kinda in a hazey state lately. i feel bad because it's affecting people and i didn't want it to. nthing's wrong with me, i'mnot unahppy or anything, i'm just kinda emotionally flat-lined right now. i've been slightly saddened by a couple of people that i've been friends with forever that i've gone to hell and back with, and so i guess that's kinda set me back a little bit. things are good though. i am pretty appy with everything. i have the best friends ever, and an outstanding family and an incredible boyfriend. things are good.
thank you guys for everything i love you all.
ima do more laundry and hold my sickly sissy.
wednesday morning james, you and me and movie!
i love you kenny.... my one and only