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This is not directed at any particular person. If it were, I wouldn't use LJ to express my anger; I'd say it to their face. That said, on to my rant.
I am poor.
It's a simple fact. I'm in debt, I'm about to be jobless for a little while, I have bills to pay, and not nearly enough money to pay them with. This is my fault. I accept responsibility for the fact that I am poor and in debt. I am working to fix this.
Part of my fixing this will be several things, only one of which affects all of you.
I will no longer be giving out rides unless you pay me as soon as you step foot into my car. While gas is cheaper now and my car gets good gas mileage, I am too poor to offer rides for free. But fear not! I am not a completely heartless bitch! If I am also planning on going where you wish to go (such as Ghost Comma or a movie), there is no charge, as I am going there any way and am not spending gas money purely on others. However, if you specifically ask me to give you a ride someplace I have not intended on going, I want two bucks up front, more if it's a longer ride. This makes me less expensive than a cab, but more than the bus, from what I understand. I am also less convenient than a cab, as I will not give you a ride if it does not fit my schedule (or I don't feel like it), but, perhaps, more so than the bus.
I'm not happy about this. I want to be able to do nice things for my friends, and I want to be able to help all of you with your lives. Unfortunately, I am in a place right now where I have to help myself first. All of you know me well enough at this point to know that selfishness is not my strongest bad trait, and I hope you can forgive me for the fact that I can't be as generous as I would like. C'est la vie.
Also, on the car-related note, since I've had several people ask me about borrowing my car as of late, just let it be generally known that I will NEVER lend out my car to ANYONE for ANY reason, no matter how much anyone needs it, no not even if it's an emergency or you're on fire. The only exception to this rule is my roommate because he specifically bought car insurance so he could drive my car and be covered. Part of the reason for my complete and utter refusal is that technically I don't own my car; it's my father's. I am insured to drive it and for all intents and purposes, it is my car, but I am not the legal owner and will, in fact, have to buy it from him either when I graduate or if it becomes totaled.
On a happier note, after finals are done, I won't have work or school so most of the time I will be sitting around, contemplating ways to grow money on trees or sleeping. As much as I wish I was still making money, I am looking forward to the complete and total down-time. Maybe I'll get some of my soul back.