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Yesterday some of my family finally got to go visit my only remaining grandparent, my dad's mom. I have not seen her since 2001 at my brother's college graduation. Before that it had been maybe 4 years. When we see her it makes me so sad that my dad has really made no attempt to let us get to know her. With my other grandma I never even knew what it was like to have a grandparent until she moved in with us. Both sides of the family are 4-6 hours away, which really isn't that far. I loved knowing my grandma until she died. At least I could say that I knew her and loved her for who she was instead of just loving her because she was family. The whole rest of my dad's family is really close, it is the side I actually have a cousin wihtin 2 years age of me, and I don't know him. I see other people who are so close to their cousins and extended family and I just admire them and wish I had that. I saw my cousin interact with my grandma and saw how he could so easily put a smile on her face and it made me jealous because I don't have that. All I have is a picture of us together and the words "Oh, I wish you all would come visit more often" in my head. Hmm....oh well....I will do better with my family I'm sure. Of course, even now I'm not super close to my brothers. Maybe it's the age difference, but then I look at how in contact Gabe's family is and I realize that I will have to pick up the slack of my family and make things happen in the future. That is one of the things I that made me fall for Gabe most, his love for his family and his desire for them to all be together and happy. And he's the biggest initiator of it. I'm not ragging on my family, I love them and I know they all love each other, but they just let life get so busy that they only have time to really think about this family. Well, I'm out.