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Have you ever just had a really .. HARD .. day? There weren't even that many things that went wrong, my heart is just .. heavy. Busy, busy, busy, with no break -- and my heart is just whispering, 'Jesus, if only I could just stop it all and be with you.' Of course I couldn't just pick up and leave work, but that's what I longed to do. And now that I have an opportunity for quiet its soothing.
I woke up from the worst dream last night. It was horrible. It was kind of weird, and awkward to write in here, but I woke up shaking, full of fear, almost crying. In those situations only prayer calms me, and I began to pray over myself, inviting peace. I've been thinking about the significance of dreams lately -- but I sure hope this didn't mean anything!
I think a lot of things just hit me today -- like sophia leaving. The day before my birthday, no less, but I know that it's going to be an amazing time for her, and a time of growing for me. I think it'll be even harder because I've separated myself from some friends who haven't made the best choices, and sophia and I have become very close, sharing the same heart in many areas. Instead of me calling her from a foreign country, it'll be her turn to call. It'll be my turn to listen on the other end, aching to be there experiencing it all.
Ahh.. so much in my heart right now.
I woke up from the worst dream last night. It was horrible. It was kind of weird, and awkward to write in here, but I woke up shaking, full of fear, almost crying. In those situations only prayer calms me, and I began to pray over myself, inviting peace. I've been thinking about the significance of dreams lately -- but I sure hope this didn't mean anything!
I think a lot of things just hit me today -- like sophia leaving. The day before my birthday, no less, but I know that it's going to be an amazing time for her, and a time of growing for me. I think it'll be even harder because I've separated myself from some friends who haven't made the best choices, and sophia and I have become very close, sharing the same heart in many areas. Instead of me calling her from a foreign country, it'll be her turn to call. It'll be my turn to listen on the other end, aching to be there experiencing it all.
Ahh.. so much in my heart right now.