One year closer to death, and I'm not even excited about it...

[angel4god]

So yeah, this is my birthday weekend, today seems like more like my birthday but technically it's on monday. So yeah I'm having a bleh day, just here being bored, going to a training in the morning and just wasting my time. Well I'm wasting my time because I have nothing to do, and nobody to talk to. I have a sucky life, I know I shouldn't complain, because I have everything I want, I have a good mom, a car and everything. But sometimes, those things can fill that void inside of me, it's like I just want to spend this birthday with some good ol friends. Just hanging out with people outside of my family can cheer me up, but I'm here alone and just bleh. Just thinking about it makes me upset. But o well life moves on, and I'll have more sucky birthdays just like this one. I have to get used to it right, not all the time I'm going to get like the biggest and bestest birthday ever. My mom keeps asking me what I want to do tonight, and I really don't care I just think I'll go home, lie down on my bed, stare at the cieling and just wait til my new computer comes in*if it ever does*. Yup I'm a loser, proud of it, but yet ashame of it at the same time.

O well I must go, but I know one day I'll get that one perfect moment, but til then I'll just have these almost perfect ones...

God Bless and much love,
Zorina