my holiday novel
ya so major update here.... i got plastered two days in a row with my bro.... major hangover and i'm a crazy drunk lol then when to moms for christmas eve... the whole family was together for christmas all 12 of us... it was awesome.... nice sense of family and lovely family traditions too... the first present i opened on xmas eve was spiderman 2 dvd... gotta love it and ya little brandon lost his first tooth xmas eve... it was wonderful being a witness... he was oh so cute and excited for santa and the fairy in one night... man did i ever enjoy playing the big sis role... dunno it just gives me a chance to be a kid too... we played games and ooo play do god i love it so on xmas up at 5 am... bee and dill jumped on me lol for xmas i got lil things like clohes cds and oh i must say alot of johnny depp and everyone liked my gifts as well... yay it was the best to xmases ever... yay so now drum roll plz... boxing day went to to to see my angel and meet his family and god family... they loved me and i love them... omg chris matts yr old god son was calling me mama d... i melted... awww chris mama d loves you baby and looks like i have another spiderman fan on my hands god i love that boy... right on chris!! ya so turkey 3 times for me... i've had enough... but the best one was with matt's family... they had me say grace with matt... it was beauiful awwww we thanked the lord for each other pretty much when you put all bible talk aside lol <3 then we all went to matt's first sermen which he wrote inspired by our love... i cried.... it was so touching... he had me sitting up front and told his church that i was his angel... ya mmm cried again and his whole church community accepted me in... wow ppl thats big... i'm oh so happy and proud of matt ..... ya so course we went back to his house and were getting all lovey dovey when his mom walked in and decided she would do his washing lol it was funny she was like matt might i remind you... and he was like i know i'm a priest... mom we're not hitting any home runs anything just kissing and she was like homerun huh ohhhhh ya that... no no kissing thats ok good boy... sick to that lol matt was oh so embrassed but that didn't stop him... thank the lord for that... dunno why but the kisses that night felt like our very first... i'm oh so in love oh ya gifts matt loved my necklace (2 hearts in middle of ctoss represents unity under god) in fact i think he shed a tear or two and showered me with kisses replying with god i love that we are united <3 so do i babe so do i ... my gift was a braclet inspirted with GOD MUST LOVE ME CAUSE YOUR IN MY LIFE AND I CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT YOU <3 it oh god i love him so ya that night we got really tempted and found his oath to god real hard to keep but we were strong and in the end we fall asleep in each other's arms oh so warm and cuddly.... spend time with him was nothing like i imagined it was better but the best part was dinner tuesday... matt took me out... roses wine we had it all... oh so romantic he had me in awe but after my pasta it was my turn... i took his hands looking in to his eyes... oh so dreamy and said matt i'm so very thankful for our friendship and i'm so glad i realized how much you truly cared... when i'm down you pick me up... we can be apart but somehow i still know you're here with me in every way... i've always been scared to love and with you knowing this you gave me your wings then becoming the answer to my prayers... i thank god everyday and now i thank you... baby i love you.... yes that was my FIRST time actually saying i love you to him... we were both crying and then he said god has find me my soulmate hun you always had my heart you know it love you more then i can say... we kissed and said those three words again as if we hadn't said enough... but then shortly after i had to say my goodbye and was on my way back to ptbo :< yesterday gramma came down for dinner and yahzee fun fun... third place here... oh more gifts too damn spoiled or what lol then today kat and i checked out the malls for boxing day sale week... yay for new clothes ya finally up to date sorry for the novel .... oh but i might say happy 8th tommortow to my bro dylan <3 and god i miss matt already